Round two of updating!

[sillycougargirl]

Soo... today has been an usual day. Watching television, sleeping, and being a bum. I finally talk to Chad tonight, since I have been trying to reach him since Thursday. But, as usual, he has been working like crazy and not been at home. We spoke tonight about the usual stuff that we do and he was fixing to get off the phone and I asked him if he mind if I come over tonight. He paused for second and said that he would love to see me but because he had been working so much, he just wanted to rest. Then he asked me if I was trying to get reattach myself to him again... I said no, because I never did let go. *Sighs* All I could say was I just want to see you... and he said that I seem to be getting needy again.

I know this is a red flag and you are probably thinking you dumbass... let the boy go. I wish I was ready to...

It just seems like the harder I try, the more he pushes away and the less I try the closer we are. I just don't understand where I went wrong. It sucks and it really hurts, but what can you do? Just suck it up and go on, I guess. Story of my life...

Until next time...