Long time no see...
... Yes, I know, I lied. One of things that happens in life when I actually think I am going to do something but like most things, it never happens. Anyways, a lot has been going on since the last entry. A lot of good times, a lot of bad times. But, that is life... got to love it. Or not.
So, the story of my life... where to start? Lets see, hmmm, well, as you can guess, Chad and I are still split and probably will be that way forever. Does it suck? Yes, it does, and hurts like hell too. Am I dumb for still having hopes? Probably so. But that is what means me human, right? We usually speak about once every week to week and a half, and during one of those conversations, I was informed that I need to get a boyfriend. Thanks for the flier there, Chad. As you can guess, there is a lot more of this story to tell, but I figure it is probably not even worth the time and effort cause I could be here all day.
I really feel like, as of late, that everything is just a bad dream and one day I am going to wake up and things will all be okay. Ahh, wishful dreaming... I know.
In other news, I am worried about my friends, mostly Sherita. She has been going through so much here lately and I wish that I could just say of words of widsom or help her out, or something, but I can't seem to find a way to help myself. I am in this funk and I just can't seem to snap out of it.
I also wonder about a few of my other friends. Julie for one since she got married and I still haven't heard from her since Chad and I split. You think with someone knowing me since 6th grade would care enough to call and at least say hey. But, I guess since she has herself a new life, who can blame her. Then there is Joshua, who I have also known since 6th grade and he just seems to fade away more and more at a time. Crazyness, it really is. I can say I miss them both and have made the effort to call them, but I can't get the same in return. And finally, there is Steven. I swear he is me in another form. But it was just weird to me that we were talking all the time and then suddenly, we stopped and I am not sure what happen. I really hate it too cause he is such a wonderful guy and I was really looking forward to seeing him this fall. But, I guess it was just not meant to be. I just hope all is well with him and what can I say, I miss him too.
I also quit my job at the doctor's office, again. It is final this time. Since my mom and I worked together and they made my mom upset and she quit... being that she was one of the two reasons why I came back... there was no point of me being there anymore. Why? Because I only know that they would throw me up there to the front and I don't even want to go there again.
So, I think I am gonna call it a day for today and take me a nap since that is what I do best right now.
Until next time...
Stay strong.
So, the story of my life... where to start? Lets see, hmmm, well, as you can guess, Chad and I are still split and probably will be that way forever. Does it suck? Yes, it does, and hurts like hell too. Am I dumb for still having hopes? Probably so. But that is what means me human, right? We usually speak about once every week to week and a half, and during one of those conversations, I was informed that I need to get a boyfriend. Thanks for the flier there, Chad. As you can guess, there is a lot more of this story to tell, but I figure it is probably not even worth the time and effort cause I could be here all day.
I really feel like, as of late, that everything is just a bad dream and one day I am going to wake up and things will all be okay. Ahh, wishful dreaming... I know.
In other news, I am worried about my friends, mostly Sherita. She has been going through so much here lately and I wish that I could just say of words of widsom or help her out, or something, but I can't seem to find a way to help myself. I am in this funk and I just can't seem to snap out of it.
I also wonder about a few of my other friends. Julie for one since she got married and I still haven't heard from her since Chad and I split. You think with someone knowing me since 6th grade would care enough to call and at least say hey. But, I guess since she has herself a new life, who can blame her. Then there is Joshua, who I have also known since 6th grade and he just seems to fade away more and more at a time. Crazyness, it really is. I can say I miss them both and have made the effort to call them, but I can't get the same in return. And finally, there is Steven. I swear he is me in another form. But it was just weird to me that we were talking all the time and then suddenly, we stopped and I am not sure what happen. I really hate it too cause he is such a wonderful guy and I was really looking forward to seeing him this fall. But, I guess it was just not meant to be. I just hope all is well with him and what can I say, I miss him too.
I also quit my job at the doctor's office, again. It is final this time. Since my mom and I worked together and they made my mom upset and she quit... being that she was one of the two reasons why I came back... there was no point of me being there anymore. Why? Because I only know that they would throw me up there to the front and I don't even want to go there again.
So, I think I am gonna call it a day for today and take me a nap since that is what I do best right now.
Until next time...
Stay strong.