A brief rant is brief

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durrr...

I really dislike that I'm slow. In all bloody aspects, especially writing and drawubg. I also feel pathetic I have to poke people that I updated. And sometimes they forget. And I feel even more pathetic why I poke them to begin with. I can't get that eager responses any more like zomg really really awesome can't wait to see more. I feel

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the contribution is not obligatory 8| since I know most of those (who might want to) contribute are going to be students. Btw, it's by the end of september/early october, puh-lenty of time 8D so it's okay to take it slow.

Idk, the thing is I'm really slow no matter how hard I put an effort and time on one thing...it plague me from academics before, and now at work, so to cripple me in the things I want to do is just =_=

I so hope it's a phase o: Thanks for opening up...

[pasifik]

Oh, geez, guys...don't do this for yourselves. :( You're both very talented people! I know everyone is entitled to feel like they're in this bottomless pit and to critique their own abilities to the point that they're depressed and never want to do it again, but you guys are doing better than most people in your respective niches

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I'm slow :| in this modern age for srs...

...or probably I don't have much time. It's crazy how I cannot budget time with things I want to do, that they end up stressing me eventually. I like to do 3-4 things I like at once, because when 12 - 1 am strikes I need to sleep. Why can't there be 30 hours in a day =_=' and to have 2 jobless siblings doing whatever they wanted is not helping...

God, I hate this phase. When I see how others fare quite well (in anything)I feel...what have I been doing?

I blame upcoming reunions too.

And about the pirihon au, I can offer ideas and creative input because having to type my bit might also take forever (technically 2 weeks, but I feel it's long) >_> Just like when I patched those 140 collab pages (which for some reason I feel I wrote something subliminal in there. I tend to weave my emotions/frustrations to my writing unintentionally) I simply feel bad making people wait.

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Being fast can be overrated. I've frozen my computers multiple times because I'm doing too many things at once too quickly and it can't catch up with my clicking. I once did two weeks of office work in two days - while I was working as a temp somewhere where I was only hired for those two weeks to do that work (I nearly put myself out of a job

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yesss quarter-life crisis indeed >_>' I start having mine about when I was 22 and I was stuck in Jersey baby sitting cousins Dx (some of them inspired some scenes in the fic btw xD)

Uh, I would love to have some hand on the pirihon :| I need a nice warm up for a pirihon request anyway which have been since april xD i have only a tiny bit of an idea how that pair will work D8 I can part some brain farts similarly in note form, which is atm i can do <3

[crossesandguns]

Aw, Kray, SiSi. Sorry for not commenting earlier; I just didn't know what to say. I hate seeing you guys this way, since I love and admire both of you and your works. I mean, you do such cool stuff that I can't ever do for myself. You guys are the reason I joined the comm, after all, your LH especially, Si.

And I guess in a way you guys inspired something in me too. Before my first post last January, I've almost completely abandoned drawing because of school stuff, etc. That comic then was my first since high school, almost five years ago! I found that I still loved to draw despite my failures at it.

I wanna tell you how happy you've made me these few months I've been in the comm. Just... I eagerly wait all your posts, Kray's awesome art, especially your cute cute Juan (the banner!) XD :D; SiSi's awesome crack and yandere!Tonio XD However long the wait is, I've learned that it's ALL FUCKING WORTH IT. Ooops, sorry XDImma support you guys like a... Sebastian-butler (or Claude-butler if you wanna Alois)! YEAH! And your doujin, Si? I've

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oh man thanks D: that means a lot, I hope kray reads this too.

To be honest, I think I unofficially upped the comm's rep by my crack, with the likes of you, viva and dmg joining the comm....and also others xp

but yeah, it's one of those days for me >_> I felt like anything that I do is not appreciated. I even got told that I'm not getting paid to do this (write stuff and draw even more random and questionable stuff) add it up with IRL crap it's...=_=

it's supposed to be fun ;A;

i even came across someone commenting on someone's fic that my works are depressing. don't read if you don't want to really, I write what I want geez.

Destressing a bit by working on mochi keychains =w=

[crossesandguns]

Yeah, I get that all the time too. My godfather told me to focus on the things that would get me paid, like finishing my course etc. He said I shouldn't use up more time on a hobby. ;___; That sucked bigtime

gah. the only thing worse than haters are the backstab haters. say it to the face, biatches.

XD And I'll be studying, I guess. :D

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the comm had made me happy 8| come to think of it, I started stalking it this month exactly (i was stalking/voting for the oc ph back then XD) and I delurked and started posting in september XD

im usually not active in comms OL wise but you guys made my stay awesome, i thought ppl will never get to appreciate my crap but you guys do (and make fan arts of it ;_; and prod people to delurk it's *_*)

ok i dunno where to go from here...uhh im grateful XD I guess.
(wth i sound like im dying)

you will get a hang of school eventually, stress is a part of life XD we just have to learn how to manage it.

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there ya gooo o/