A brief rant is brief

[silentside]

durrr...

I really dislike that I'm slow. In all bloody aspects, especially writing and drawubg. I also feel pathetic I have to poke people that I updated. And sometimes they forget. And I feel even more pathetic why I poke them to begin with. I can't get that eager responses any more like zomg really really awesome can't wait to see more. I feel

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[sweetfragrance9]

Don't worry, I support you! *hugs*

You...should...let them see your works for themselves and stop poking them...if that makes you....better? I'm not sure, just a suggestion. But if this is a not-so good suggestion, then ignore it. :-bd

[silentside]

I think so, but then again I go and become Matthew to everyone :/
Sometime I just want to quit. People don't find what I do amusing anymore. Although getting ignored is nothing new.

[silentside]

oh god my previous reply sounds emotastically weird :/

I just realized my collab dribble has a subliminal hint of this frustration. orz.

[silentside]

the contribution is not obligatory 8| since I know most of those (who might want to) contribute are going to be students. Btw, it's by the end of september/early october, puh-lenty of time 8D so it's okay to take it slow.

Idk, the thing is I'm really slow no matter how hard I put an effort and time on one thing...it plague me from academics before, and now at work, so to cripple me in the things I want to do is just =_=

I so hope it's a phase o: Thanks for opening up...

[pasifik]

Oh, geez, guys...don't do this for yourselves. :( You're both very talented people! I know everyone is entitled to feel like they're in this bottomless pit and to critique their own abilities to the point that they're depressed and never want to do it again, but you guys are doing better than most people in your respective niches

[silentside]

I'm slow :| in this modern age for srs...

...or probably I don't have much time. It's crazy how I cannot budget time with things I want to do, that they end up stressing me eventually. I like to do 3-4 things I like at once, because when 12 - 1 am strikes I need to sleep. Why can't there be 30 hours in a day =_=' and to have 2 jobless siblings doing whatever they wanted is not helping...

God, I hate this phase. When I see how others fare quite well (in anything)I feel...what have I been doing?

I blame upcoming reunions too.

And about the pirihon au, I can offer ideas and creative input because having to type my bit might also take forever (technically 2 weeks, but I feel it's long) >_> Just like when I patched those 140 collab pages (which for some reason I feel I wrote something subliminal in there. I tend to weave my emotions/frustrations to my writing unintentionally) I simply feel bad making people wait.