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Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired. woke up today at 5:15 AM after having not fallen asleep last night until about 2:30 AM. Schleped B to the airpost so she could get on her plane to Houston which took off at 7:10 am. Went into work early and am now on my shift until at least 4:30 pm. I am currently in that struggle for consciousness which resembles a ping-pong match set in slow motion. The good news is; I am off tomorrow and monday, but even so, B is out of town and I won't sleep well with her away from me. I am thinking about going and getting a new video game after work, which will occupy a certain amount of my thought processes to help alieveate the feeling of emptiness in the apartment while she is gone. I see this as only a temporary fix, but it would be nice to have something to do that will pass me straight into a sleepy state of mind from exhaustion so I wont have to battle the idea of her not lying next to me in bed.
The realm of entertainment is good sometimes in that sense, I think. There are too many issues in our world that we could be occupying our minds with, so much that I think they would overwhelm us as individuals and task saturation would take over, not allowing us to get anything accomplished. The trick however, is not to fall so deep into the realm of entertainment so that we as individuals neglect pressing issues that may be around us, on any scale.
I have been considering the idea of balance moreso lately. I have always been drawn to it, not only as a personal guideline for some of lifes finer points, but in the greater sense of being as well. Last night when I was waiting for B to get off of work, I explored some of the books on Buhdism because I constantly find myself drawn to it. I find myself drawn to tyring to understand as many philosophies and religions as I can, simply because part of my own personal belief system that I have dopted to this day involves taking aspects of all philosophies and religions and kind of making a "belief system gespatcho". When I think about this "Gespatcho" like a recipie, I have to understand that parts of many different veggies are put into play, and even some rather odd ingredients, that would taste rather bad on thier own. But if one thing acts as a "base" that would hold it all together, like the tomato juice, it would be, imo, balance.
I realize I'm starting to ramble here, partly because I'm so tired, and partly because I could go on for hours describing my spiritual processes. Whats worse is that I could describe my spiritual processes for several hours and not even scratch the surface of what really goes on in my head sometimes. Thats when I get deep like a Navy Seal.
Peace and Love to All.
The realm of entertainment is good sometimes in that sense, I think. There are too many issues in our world that we could be occupying our minds with, so much that I think they would overwhelm us as individuals and task saturation would take over, not allowing us to get anything accomplished. The trick however, is not to fall so deep into the realm of entertainment so that we as individuals neglect pressing issues that may be around us, on any scale.
I have been considering the idea of balance moreso lately. I have always been drawn to it, not only as a personal guideline for some of lifes finer points, but in the greater sense of being as well. Last night when I was waiting for B to get off of work, I explored some of the books on Buhdism because I constantly find myself drawn to it. I find myself drawn to tyring to understand as many philosophies and religions as I can, simply because part of my own personal belief system that I have dopted to this day involves taking aspects of all philosophies and religions and kind of making a "belief system gespatcho". When I think about this "Gespatcho" like a recipie, I have to understand that parts of many different veggies are put into play, and even some rather odd ingredients, that would taste rather bad on thier own. But if one thing acts as a "base" that would hold it all together, like the tomato juice, it would be, imo, balance.
I realize I'm starting to ramble here, partly because I'm so tired, and partly because I could go on for hours describing my spiritual processes. Whats worse is that I could describe my spiritual processes for several hours and not even scratch the surface of what really goes on in my head sometimes. Thats when I get deep like a Navy Seal.
Peace and Love to All.