It's such a gorgeous day at the moment. A light breeze, vibrant sunshine and the hint of autumn around the edges. A perfect sort of day. It's my one day off for another five days and my mother has been away this weekend at a family wedding. I should be happy and enjoying myself. Instead I am lonely and depressed because every single one of my ( Read more... )

I haven't felt this crap in a long time. This morning at work Belinda received not one but two massive boxes of roses from her fiance. I tried to be the happy friend and not get upset. I really did. But she left them opened behind the counter for the whole world to see so for eight hours I had people asking me if they were my flowers and I had to ( Read more... )

I am steadily making my way through my DVD collection as a way to fill the hours I am not working or making feeble attempts at socialising. Due to my current wibbly and slightly woeful mood I've been focussing on the romance ones. Last night was the eternally loved Bridget Jones's Diary and tonight I watched Notting HillSaturday night was typical ( Read more... )

I am avoiding uni work. The stupid thing is that it's not difficult and about a subject I'm interested in. A sudden cloud of melancholy descendended upon me today and it makes it a little hard to gather the energy for anything ( Read more... )

Tonight is Caitlin's last night in Sydney. Tomorrow she returns home to Canada. It's a very somber event, losing every day contact with one of my closest friends. To celebrate, we are watching some classic Aussie movies: The Castle and Finding Nemo and killing ourselves with chocolate ( Read more... )

Friday nights are my lowest part of the week. Feelings of isolation, loneliness and general melancholy occur pretty much every Friday night. This may be because every Friday night I sit at home, on my own, with no one to talk to and nothing to do ( Read more... )

I'm so damn exhausted. It's a breath-catching, soul-crushing exhaustion ( Read more... )

Why is it that a thousand customers could say my name and it's nothing, but if he says my name it instantly means more ( Read more... )

There is some spectacular self-loathing going on at the moment. When I'm not too busy wallowing in it and instead inspecting it like a particularly nasty zit, it's just plain annoying ( Read more... )

I had a night terror last night, a really bad one. I was so terrified I was screaming my head off. But apparently I was screaming something about a boy so tonight mum was like "why were you screaming about a boy?" Haha awkward ( Read more... )