Now is probably not the best time to speak to anyone who has an inebriation-involved judgemental opinon of me considering the fact that I am sipping a decent cabernet-merlot wine out of a spill proof coffee cup, but i must say, that i do indeed have an amazing mother. despite the fact that she has to wake up at 4am (yes 4am, the time that i may ( Read more... )

sometimes i'm tempted to just delete this whole thing...it's so ridiculously emotional and petty that i'm almost embarrassed to keep it as my own. but you know what? i wrote each entry with the the most sincere need to say what it was i said each time while i was feeling what i was feeling at those moments. so i will keep them out of respect for my ( Read more... )

So, life's comfortably monotonous ( Read more... )

i'm back home for fall break. i missed my dogs...and my cat...and futon... brother...parents, in that order, so i came back. for four days. four days. fooouuuurrrr days. no really, i missed my family. i feel bad for saying i missed my bed more so. not true. not...really. i miss my library. as silly as THAT might sound. i do. it's quiet, serene, and ( Read more... )

This is perhaps the worst time to post to a journal. When I am in this particular mood. What is this mood, exactly? Romantic? Sentimental? Reminiscent? Hopeful? Helpless? I do not know. At this exact moment, I wish I was a poet in 1920's, perhaps 1930's france, when only the foreboding sense of the end of romance was upon that beautiful city with ( Read more... )

So...I've taken up reading again. Sometimes I feel that books have become somewhat of a crutch I use to avoid actual reality and its complications and my personal issues I have with said reality...but, I think a book that involves the sweetest 21 year old young man in the literary world who happens to see the spirits of dead people, is grieving ( Read more... )

So....[WARNING: a series of ridiculously over-used cliches ahead] love is a funny thing. You abhor it one moment, you adore it the next, and at last you become accepting of its extremely annoying whims and of the fact that it will never turn out the way you expect or want it to; and the cycle just continues until...I don't know what. I'm in the " ( Read more... )

I am not going to be nice anymore. Nice people do not have relationships from being nice, they do not win in life and they most certainly do not come in first; they come in last, dead fucking last, because every other god-damned prig in the race knows they can push the nice guy down or trip him up because he'll forgive them in the end anyways; but ( Read more... )

i can't wait to go home. I take my family for granted. i always think how nice it is to be needed by other people, and then i go and forget to call them one day or cut a conversation short the next. it's difficult to remember how important something is until it's gone ( Read more... )

when did it become unhip to believe in a god? when did we stop burning people at the stake for not believing in a god and start burning them for believing? me personally, i'm anti-burning all together. it's just that...for hundreds and thousands of years we as a race fought to end the stigmatization of specific spiritualities, religions and beliefs ( Read more... )