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[shubear88]

Well, I haven't updated in a while but for some reason I felt motivated to do it tonight. Pretty soon I will be interning full time in a second grade classroom and I have a ton of reservations about it. I'm extremely nervous and scared and I just don't feel ready for this. My last internship was hell and I had a horrible supervisor who gave me a really hard time..I'm not looking forward to experiencing something like that again. And I don't feel like I could ever control a classroom on my own. Discipline has always been difficult for me..I don't even like disciplining animals that bite me much less children... I'm just terrified and unmotivated to teach. I think this program has taken every ounce of passion I had for teaching from me. And on top of that, my sister was here for 21 days and just left a couple days ago. It's weird not having her around and she's going to move to Alaska once her husband gets back from Afghanistan. It's weird to think that things will never be the same and that those 21 days were probably the last days I really got to spend with her. I also am  possibly about to face a major transition regarding a relationship with a close friend of mine which will make life a little different than usual as well..in a bad way -___- I just don't know how I'm gonna get through this all and heaven knows what I'm gonna do when I graduate. I guess you could say I'm in a major funk....I hope things get better.

On a lighter note, I've been watching a lot of Tiger & Bunny and I love it! It's a great series! Anyway...Oyasumi.