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I don't know who of you read this, so I'm mostly writing this for my own sake, so that in a year I can look back at these "crush"-entries and laugh. I hope... O.o
Anyway. I thought everything was going pretty well. Yesterday was good. I had come to terms with the fact that Mads and I wouldn't get together and life was good. I had come to the conclusion that Lars is annoying to no end. And that's how Monday went. I ignored Mads, didn't talk to Lars and Thomas was nowhere near me. That all changed today. I sat down pretty close to Thomas at the lectures and we switched mp3-players and made fun of each other (Celine Dion? Seriously?). I kept glancing at Mads, because I might have come to term with the "no us"-thing, but he's still cute (okay, seriously? I couldn't concentrate all the way through the lecture and I kept thinking "I really want to lick that neck"), but didn't talk to Lars, in spite of him sitting practically next to me. So after bonding with Thomas (I don't want him in a romantic way, but as a friend. He's way too sweet not to be friends with) I walked down to the cantina, passing (and ignoring) Mads on the way (he said hey in a most cheerful way, I said hey in a...bored kind of way). In the cantina Birgitte asked if I'd talked to Lars, because he looked really depressed and hadn't talked to anyone all day. Then I started feeling all guilty, in spite of the others saying I shouldn't, because it really wasn't my fault. So I guess I have to talk to him tomorrow. After that Mads started to walk past me several times. In the beginning he didn't look at me and I didn't look at him, but the more times he past, the more I started looking at him and then we started doing the thing we did all. last. week: the looking into each others' eyes whenever our eyes met. Which they did. A lot. He walked out of the room twice and both times he held my gaze the entire walk.
So now I'm as confused as I was last week. If you'd asked me 24 hours ago I would have said I didn't care about all three of them. Now? Not so much.
Oh, and uni is taking all my time these days. Don't expect much of me on Mondays and Tuesday the next 6 weeks, because school is 9-5 and I need to prepare for the next day as well. And assignments to write. I need to read, like, 150 pages for tomorrow...
Anyway. I thought everything was going pretty well. Yesterday was good. I had come to terms with the fact that Mads and I wouldn't get together and life was good. I had come to the conclusion that Lars is annoying to no end. And that's how Monday went. I ignored Mads, didn't talk to Lars and Thomas was nowhere near me. That all changed today. I sat down pretty close to Thomas at the lectures and we switched mp3-players and made fun of each other (Celine Dion? Seriously?). I kept glancing at Mads, because I might have come to term with the "no us"-thing, but he's still cute (okay, seriously? I couldn't concentrate all the way through the lecture and I kept thinking "I really want to lick that neck"), but didn't talk to Lars, in spite of him sitting practically next to me. So after bonding with Thomas (I don't want him in a romantic way, but as a friend. He's way too sweet not to be friends with) I walked down to the cantina, passing (and ignoring) Mads on the way (he said hey in a most cheerful way, I said hey in a...bored kind of way). In the cantina Birgitte asked if I'd talked to Lars, because he looked really depressed and hadn't talked to anyone all day. Then I started feeling all guilty, in spite of the others saying I shouldn't, because it really wasn't my fault. So I guess I have to talk to him tomorrow. After that Mads started to walk past me several times. In the beginning he didn't look at me and I didn't look at him, but the more times he past, the more I started looking at him and then we started doing the thing we did all. last. week: the looking into each others' eyes whenever our eyes met. Which they did. A lot. He walked out of the room twice and both times he held my gaze the entire walk.
So now I'm as confused as I was last week. If you'd asked me 24 hours ago I would have said I didn't care about all three of them. Now? Not so much.
Oh, and uni is taking all my time these days. Don't expect much of me on Mondays and Tuesday the next 6 weeks, because school is 9-5 and I need to prepare for the next day as well. And assignments to write. I need to read, like, 150 pages for tomorrow...