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so I have gone on a few dates with this guy Brian. He is very attractive and when we talk...we talk for hours. I feel so comfortable around him yet so insecure around him all at the same time. Our dates are always so organic, we click very well and there is obviously an attraction between us. Yet, on our last date we got kind of physical, and he has been making it very clear that he does not want a serious relationship right now. To be honest, I am not sure if I am ready for another serious relationship right now. I want to be able to offer as much to a relationship as possible, and I feel like right now I need to learn to love myself again before I can be in a loving relationship. Yet, I want to keep seeing Brian. I enjoy being around him. I really really really really enjoy kissing him. But I am scared that this is just going to turn into something physical fast and I am going to once again feel like I am being used for sex. While I am unsure about an emotional relationship...I know for sure I do not want just a physical relationship again. I love being physical, I love sharing my self with others, I am just tired of feeling like others want nothing else except that. I want someone to be fully be interested in me not just my body. I am tired of feeling used.