Jul 22, 2009 16:20
today i met with my counselor friend.
i have been feeling pretty good lately.
i started reading this book called conversations with god...it is really amazing and makes a whole lot of sense.
i was feeling good today until i saw a picture of speedie on facebook and it nearly knocked me over sideways...it made my heart hurt. seriously hurt. and then of course what do i do...i look for more pictures of him in the photo album..redunkulous.
but then again...today my counselor friend and i were talking about what made speedie so great that i decided i needed to start changing for him? ....and i didn't know. i did not have an answer to the question.
i keep thinking...self respect.
i deserve to be loved unconditionally. we all do. we all are.
I am getting over this i do believe..so please excuse the many discussions about speedie...it is just my way of venting about the situation