The Long and Winding Road
I feel sick...
I can't be alone......if there isn't another person around me I want to break down....and sometimes when other people are around me....
I can't focus...I have to do so much work and I can't focus....
How can I make it through this?
and it feels like no one cares about me as much as he did...and it feels like no one ever will....
and I'm trying to be so strong.....but why let something go that you believe so much in....
everyday that goes by I forget why I wanted it to end...which sucks....'cause then I can't be mad about it....
::sigh::
writing in here helps...but it hurts seeing my feelings written out too...
hey if it's meant to be it'll come back....
but how do I know when it can come back when he'll let me back anytime....
he wants to be friends....I don't know if I can do that....and I def. don't think he can....
my friend just came out here and saw me cry a little bit but didn't really do anything about it...'cause she sucks...
It's as easy as picking up the phone
It's as hard as forgiving the mistakes
It's as deep as my heart has been
It's all I know...
I hate not being able to know when enough is enough....I think if I tried really hard I could move on from him...but I can't anyways because I don't know if he'll ever be completely out of my life...or if I want him to be.....I just want him to grow up...
I think this is Day 3 withdrawal
Tomorrow I'm going to tell my mom....and have fun with her because she's coming up here to take me shopping.....
To Be Continued
I can't be alone......if there isn't another person around me I want to break down....and sometimes when other people are around me....
I can't focus...I have to do so much work and I can't focus....
How can I make it through this?
and it feels like no one cares about me as much as he did...and it feels like no one ever will....
and I'm trying to be so strong.....but why let something go that you believe so much in....
everyday that goes by I forget why I wanted it to end...which sucks....'cause then I can't be mad about it....
::sigh::
writing in here helps...but it hurts seeing my feelings written out too...
hey if it's meant to be it'll come back....
but how do I know when it can come back when he'll let me back anytime....
he wants to be friends....I don't know if I can do that....and I def. don't think he can....
my friend just came out here and saw me cry a little bit but didn't really do anything about it...'cause she sucks...
It's as easy as picking up the phone
It's as hard as forgiving the mistakes
It's as deep as my heart has been
It's all I know...
I hate not being able to know when enough is enough....I think if I tried really hard I could move on from him...but I can't anyways because I don't know if he'll ever be completely out of my life...or if I want him to be.....I just want him to grow up...
I think this is Day 3 withdrawal
Tomorrow I'm going to tell my mom....and have fun with her because she's coming up here to take me shopping.....
To Be Continued