Been there F***ed that up
this time without Dustin has been completely different....I mean there are still songs I can't listen to..like all of them...without being ill or crying...but already I've found myself liking this guy...
that guy scott in my previous entry..the one who was there when I fell on my face....well we've hung out everyday..it's pretty crazy
ing home on friday...and it'll be sad...and then I'll have to face home...which I haven't been to in two weeks....which will be hard..but I'll manage....'cause I'm getting stronger...and this is my life....
but I'm being super careful because I need to heal by wound from Dustin instead of just cover it over with a band-aid named Scott
I'm so glad I've done this before..'cause now I know my mistakes and can TRY to not do them again..I don't want to hurt Scott like I hurt Steve...and I don't want Scott to be a rebound....I want to be friends with him...'cause he's really sweet and a computer science major and he eats all healthy...lol and he drinks beer to like not every five seconds..but like casual beer..you know like an ADULT!....like a MAN lol...j/k...like he'll just have one while he's doing homework...and I'm like YAYA finally someone who can control his alcohol intake
so yes....I'm very into this guy....but trying not to be so much which is hard when it's really what you feel.....
unfortunately I'm going home friday...but hey we'll see how it all turns out..:)
that guy scott in my previous entry..the one who was there when I fell on my face....well we've hung out everyday..it's pretty crazy
ing home on friday...and it'll be sad...and then I'll have to face home...which I haven't been to in two weeks....which will be hard..but I'll manage....'cause I'm getting stronger...and this is my life....
but I'm being super careful because I need to heal by wound from Dustin instead of just cover it over with a band-aid named Scott
I'm so glad I've done this before..'cause now I know my mistakes and can TRY to not do them again..I don't want to hurt Scott like I hurt Steve...and I don't want Scott to be a rebound....I want to be friends with him...'cause he's really sweet and a computer science major and he eats all healthy...lol and he drinks beer to like not every five seconds..but like casual beer..you know like an ADULT!....like a MAN lol...j/k...like he'll just have one while he's doing homework...and I'm like YAYA finally someone who can control his alcohol intake
so yes....I'm very into this guy....but trying not to be so much which is hard when it's really what you feel.....
unfortunately I'm going home friday...but hey we'll see how it all turns out..:)