hmmm
I'm starting to realize that despite all of my dreams, aspirations and ambitions, my lack of action is showing that I'm really insecure about my future. I have a vague outline of my life after graduation: service work for a year or two, grad school, job in a women's rights-oriented field. Yet I haven't really done much to move toward these goals. I pin-pointed a few service sites with Americorps that I'd like to do, but I never finished those applications. I got so far as the "Why I want to work here" essay and the letters of recommendation and decided to take a break; I had enough time. That was the beginning of July and I haven't gone back to it. Especially with the Alaska site that I was so excited about; I missed those application deadlines.
Actually, as far as Americorps is concerned, there are really no sites left that I am particularly interested in. Okay, there's one in Illinois, but that's only a one-month stint. I want to be in this for the long haul. So I'm in the car this morning thinking all this over and I realize that in a situation like this where I'm kinda wishy-washy and putting it off, the best thing to do is just identify something and jump in. I'm actually kinda looking at the Peace Corps again. I ruled it out before because I felt like they just kinda drop you off and say "See ya, good luck". But maybe that's the kick start, dive-in-head-first kind of thing that I need right now. I don't know. I'll take another look and do some soul searching. But I better do it quick before I miss this boat too...
Actually, as far as Americorps is concerned, there are really no sites left that I am particularly interested in. Okay, there's one in Illinois, but that's only a one-month stint. I want to be in this for the long haul. So I'm in the car this morning thinking all this over and I realize that in a situation like this where I'm kinda wishy-washy and putting it off, the best thing to do is just identify something and jump in. I'm actually kinda looking at the Peace Corps again. I ruled it out before because I felt like they just kinda drop you off and say "See ya, good luck". But maybe that's the kick start, dive-in-head-first kind of thing that I need right now. I don't know. I'll take another look and do some soul searching. But I better do it quick before I miss this boat too...