Reflections in the drops of rain
Walking home from class, drenched by the poouring of the gods. Though it may not be appealing to most. But actually, it was actually joyful and somewhat eventful, and sad. I don't know really, it just feels nice being able to reflect back on your life as you walk in the darkened mood. Some may say I'm a little crazy, but I think it's just one of those things that lets you actually come to earth with yourself and actually think and reflect on who you are, what you are doing, and who you want to become, and also along with all the things that may be troubling you.
Anyway I won't get into my little exursion of self expression/thought, but I have a midterm tomorrow and one next week on the 22nd. Which should be okay, since I seem to be proficient enough to pass and excel. Which is not something that I'm really proud of, I mean honestly.. can you imagine someone who worked as hard as they do and I end up doing better than them with a shorter amount of time. It doesn't really seem fair to me, but I dunno, I still believe the phrase/aphorism "if there is a will there is a way". Too bad most people take it with a grain of salt, if they actually pursued and apply it, they can achieve anything. Hah I really should listen to my own words, but then again, the first thing I have to find is something to pursue. Some suggest, finding some sort of comfort/happiness, I really wonder what happiness is. Because, currently, I don't even know where to begin. But I look on, reading and studying about happiness, in hope that I'll find it one day.
My current conclusion of happiness: to always be growing, learning, changing, and moving never being stagnant. Because once you're stagnant you just kind of die, like the repitition in life. I mean for example: if you don't have something to look forward to everyday, it just seems kind of pointless. So in the process of doing that, you eventually grow with it, just like nature itself. There are still so many things in life I want to do, I wonder once I do all of them, what would I do next? What would be the point of life, because before it was always about gaining something. Gaining that object when your kid, getting that nintendo, getting that game. Hopefully I'll find the answer in others, and in due time I'll find happiness.
Anyway I won't get into my little exursion of self expression/thought, but I have a midterm tomorrow and one next week on the 22nd. Which should be okay, since I seem to be proficient enough to pass and excel. Which is not something that I'm really proud of, I mean honestly.. can you imagine someone who worked as hard as they do and I end up doing better than them with a shorter amount of time. It doesn't really seem fair to me, but I dunno, I still believe the phrase/aphorism "if there is a will there is a way". Too bad most people take it with a grain of salt, if they actually pursued and apply it, they can achieve anything. Hah I really should listen to my own words, but then again, the first thing I have to find is something to pursue. Some suggest, finding some sort of comfort/happiness, I really wonder what happiness is. Because, currently, I don't even know where to begin. But I look on, reading and studying about happiness, in hope that I'll find it one day.
My current conclusion of happiness: to always be growing, learning, changing, and moving never being stagnant. Because once you're stagnant you just kind of die, like the repitition in life. I mean for example: if you don't have something to look forward to everyday, it just seems kind of pointless. So in the process of doing that, you eventually grow with it, just like nature itself. There are still so many things in life I want to do, I wonder once I do all of them, what would I do next? What would be the point of life, because before it was always about gaining something. Gaining that object when your kid, getting that nintendo, getting that game. Hopefully I'll find the answer in others, and in due time I'll find happiness.