more Update
Well things are still going insanely well with me and Fayth. I think ill go into more detail now since I have time before she comes back online. First off I love her so much it doesnt even seem possible to love a girl that much without seeing her yet. She is the first girl ever to accept me just as I am. She likes my geekiness she likes my pervertedness =P she makes fun of my dress and music choice but mainly in tease. she loves my smile and thinks im cute v_v and giggles every time i laugh. Shes given me more affection than any girl ever has. We get along almost perfectly and our differences only seem to accent eachother and make eachother more interesting. =3 Joe says I have a damned good choice in women even though im picky and a pain in the ass. lol.
I couldnt stand the idea of her being near that man she was with nemore, and I want more than anything to give her the best life possible. She has already agreed to come and live with me eventually, but im going to force her to take it slowly so she will be more concrete in the decision. But still I am so happy that she wants so badly to be with me. I have never felt this motivated to do anything in my entire life. I feel energized. I want to get in Shape, im going to get a better job and some better hours so that I can support her. I stopped drinking soda except for ocasionally, permanently because she wanted me too, and I will probably start to eat even healthier because of her. v_v Things have just gone so well I cant help but believe it was anything other than the hand of fate or something beyond that even. Everything about this feels absolutely right. My life seems to finally have found a path to follow and has decided to speed down it like a bullet train.
I love her more than anything and I cant wait to see her, and just give her everything I have. v_v ive been too long lonely, but atleast now i know it was for a purpose.
As for the Jill and Mary situation v_v i want to resolve it and talk to them but I cant remember Jills aim name or she blocked me -shrugs- i made a point to not block them because i wanted to keep atleast some of my promises and i wanted it open in case they had something they needed to tell me. I realise im a sexist bastard because i worry about them more than my guy friends. But I believe Ian was right that Even tho I love all my friends, I love jill and mary in a different way v_v It hurts me when they drink and smoke even if they dont want to hurt me or its not my business or whatever excuse there might be which could be completely and entirely plausible. The plain fact is that I care about them and It hurt... I can get over the hurt but I dont know its tough. I feel like ive wronged them in being so angry but yet i was angry for a reason. It wasnt like there was a way i could just bottle up my anger bite my toung and continue talking to them when i was so furious v_v. They crossed a line and made me snap but I still love them and Jill has always been so nice and caring for me in certain situations. I just dont really know what to do what to say to myself much less to them.
Until then I will just... stick with Fayth and fulfill my goal and make her happy. It fills my heart to have this road to follow and I should put my all into it..
I couldnt stand the idea of her being near that man she was with nemore, and I want more than anything to give her the best life possible. She has already agreed to come and live with me eventually, but im going to force her to take it slowly so she will be more concrete in the decision. But still I am so happy that she wants so badly to be with me. I have never felt this motivated to do anything in my entire life. I feel energized. I want to get in Shape, im going to get a better job and some better hours so that I can support her. I stopped drinking soda except for ocasionally, permanently because she wanted me too, and I will probably start to eat even healthier because of her. v_v Things have just gone so well I cant help but believe it was anything other than the hand of fate or something beyond that even. Everything about this feels absolutely right. My life seems to finally have found a path to follow and has decided to speed down it like a bullet train.
I love her more than anything and I cant wait to see her, and just give her everything I have. v_v ive been too long lonely, but atleast now i know it was for a purpose.
As for the Jill and Mary situation v_v i want to resolve it and talk to them but I cant remember Jills aim name or she blocked me -shrugs- i made a point to not block them because i wanted to keep atleast some of my promises and i wanted it open in case they had something they needed to tell me. I realise im a sexist bastard because i worry about them more than my guy friends. But I believe Ian was right that Even tho I love all my friends, I love jill and mary in a different way v_v It hurts me when they drink and smoke even if they dont want to hurt me or its not my business or whatever excuse there might be which could be completely and entirely plausible. The plain fact is that I care about them and It hurt... I can get over the hurt but I dont know its tough. I feel like ive wronged them in being so angry but yet i was angry for a reason. It wasnt like there was a way i could just bottle up my anger bite my toung and continue talking to them when i was so furious v_v. They crossed a line and made me snap but I still love them and Jill has always been so nice and caring for me in certain situations. I just dont really know what to do what to say to myself much less to them.
Until then I will just... stick with Fayth and fulfill my goal and make her happy. It fills my heart to have this road to follow and I should put my all into it..