Happy Holidays Indeed... *rolls eyes in bullshit*
"I'm embarrassed for him."
- Nathaniel (I'm not. I was pissed)
I am so angry right now that I can't breathe. I mean, I know I'm breathing but it just feels entirely different.
Soooooooooo...
Last night was the Thanksgiving dinner that I host every year. (Today is Thanksgiving by the way. Happy Thanksgiving to those that would mean anything to) Nathaniel came from school, Tasha brought the kids, it was a whole family affair. Everything was going great until Player 456 decided to get high in the bathroom and start tweaking out all over the fucking place. It was so bad. It took everything I had to not show my ass yesterday. I wasn't just angry. I was livid.
^Bruh… We live in a simulation
I'm still pissed. I honestly don't understand how a person can do any of this. There's a house full of KIDS and you're at fucking THANKSGIVING DINNER. This isn't some 2am sneak and poke. You literally knew you were in a house full of people when you did the shit. Now I have my family wanting me to go over there for Thanksgiving but my misery does not love company. (That's why I told Mo I didn't care if she stayed overnight at her boyfriend's tonight. She needed a break and I didn't think I could be a source of entertainment today. I really just wanna get in my bed and call it a day. That's it) Disappointed hurt is different from disappointed or just hurt. There's something about putting them together that changes the vibe, ya know?
^I know this man wasn't looking for sympathy. His response? “No I fucked enough up already. I'm going to hell quick.” Like sir, if you felt even close to horrible, Mos's phone would be ringing off the hook right now. You would want to throw yourself at her feet and beg for her forgiveness. This tells me you're not really sorry. You want me to do your dirty work and smooth things over like past me used to. This Me isn't about that life. If you can show your ass, you can fix what you broke. It's not my job to slather this situation in pretty words. You crossed a line! The house mood hasn't been below green since Mo was dating Tyler! It's RED. (Mo put it at yellow but I changed it to red yesterday)
You don't get to ruin Thanksgiving then act as if someone else should ask for forgiveness for you. It's just like when he brought his hurt feelings and jealousy on our last family vacation. He ruined that entire trip with his behavior then wanted me to smooth things over with the kids instead of admitting that the shit was gross and shouldn't have happened in the 1st fucking place. Knowing he didn't put not one penny in on that trip made the situation worse. How are you ruining a trip that you asked to be invited on? Talking about “It'll be cheaper for me to drive y'all.” Oh yeah, it was cheaper all right. All it cost was our mental health. That's nothing to a narcissist.
Welp, the forgiveness train will no longer be driven by me. If he truly wants forgiveness, he'll put in the work. That's it. That's all.
Later
PS: Player 456 should be thanking Jarod cuz me calling him was what kept my hands off his crackhead throat.
^This specifically 🥰🥰🥰
- Nathaniel (I'm not. I was pissed)
I am so angry right now that I can't breathe. I mean, I know I'm breathing but it just feels entirely different.
Soooooooooo...
Last night was the Thanksgiving dinner that I host every year. (Today is Thanksgiving by the way. Happy Thanksgiving to those that would mean anything to) Nathaniel came from school, Tasha brought the kids, it was a whole family affair. Everything was going great until Player 456 decided to get high in the bathroom and start tweaking out all over the fucking place. It was so bad. It took everything I had to not show my ass yesterday. I wasn't just angry. I was livid.
^Bruh… We live in a simulation
I'm still pissed. I honestly don't understand how a person can do any of this. There's a house full of KIDS and you're at fucking THANKSGIVING DINNER. This isn't some 2am sneak and poke. You literally knew you were in a house full of people when you did the shit. Now I have my family wanting me to go over there for Thanksgiving but my misery does not love company. (That's why I told Mo I didn't care if she stayed overnight at her boyfriend's tonight. She needed a break and I didn't think I could be a source of entertainment today. I really just wanna get in my bed and call it a day. That's it) Disappointed hurt is different from disappointed or just hurt. There's something about putting them together that changes the vibe, ya know?
^I know this man wasn't looking for sympathy. His response? “No I fucked enough up already. I'm going to hell quick.” Like sir, if you felt even close to horrible, Mos's phone would be ringing off the hook right now. You would want to throw yourself at her feet and beg for her forgiveness. This tells me you're not really sorry. You want me to do your dirty work and smooth things over like past me used to. This Me isn't about that life. If you can show your ass, you can fix what you broke. It's not my job to slather this situation in pretty words. You crossed a line! The house mood hasn't been below green since Mo was dating Tyler! It's RED. (Mo put it at yellow but I changed it to red yesterday)
You don't get to ruin Thanksgiving then act as if someone else should ask for forgiveness for you. It's just like when he brought his hurt feelings and jealousy on our last family vacation. He ruined that entire trip with his behavior then wanted me to smooth things over with the kids instead of admitting that the shit was gross and shouldn't have happened in the 1st fucking place. Knowing he didn't put not one penny in on that trip made the situation worse. How are you ruining a trip that you asked to be invited on? Talking about “It'll be cheaper for me to drive y'all.” Oh yeah, it was cheaper all right. All it cost was our mental health. That's nothing to a narcissist.
Welp, the forgiveness train will no longer be driven by me. If he truly wants forgiveness, he'll put in the work. That's it. That's all.
Later
PS: Player 456 should be thanking Jarod cuz me calling him was what kept my hands off his crackhead throat.
^This specifically 🥰🥰🥰