Yet To Come... (Part One)
"I'm only built for forward motion 🤷🤷🤷"
- Me (Talking to my Aunt Carroll yesterday)
OMC… I woke up to "Yet To Come! (Thought I was gonna wake up to tomorrow, but nah. I prefer this! 💜💜💜)
No, this isn't the review, but just know I can't wait to talk about it. I've been smiling since I heard it. I've gotta listen to it a few more times so that I can get a more solid view of what I heard.
Soooooooo… Stick a pin in this…
Why am I here then? Apparently, yesterday, at 1:19pms, Player 456 got outta the clink. I was in full panic/freak out/anxiety mode (I mean, shaking, sitting on the ground in front of Food Lion… It was that bad) when I arrived at my hair appointment. Tyra has done hair 3x's in the past. While she was doing my hair, she started talking to me about my mood. The longer she talked, the more I questioned myself as to why I was feeling anything about the situation at all.
Nobody has power in your life unless you hand over the keys. I'm a single woman living her best single life. I've invested entirely too much into not only this birthday, but my mental health to give someone else power over my moods. My fucking birthday is tomorrow! I'm gonna spend the day with someone who actually gives a shit about me. What the fuck do I have to be freaking out about? If it's outside of me, it's not for me. That's just the way it is now and you know what? There's nothing wrong with pushing aside other people's shit (ESPECIALLY HIS) in favor of a fun, relaxing birthday.
You know what? Casa de mentality is taking a stand, dammit! Doesn't matter if what's going on with me is PTSD, ADHD or OPP… I'm willing to go to war in order to give myself a better future.
Starting with this little project that I like to call "Shinigami's Best Birthday Ever" from there? Probably everything cuz I wanna give myself exactly what I deserve: EVERYTHING
So there's no time for tears, fears and/or drama… It's like *points* our post quote of the day says. I'm no longer invested/interested in what's behind me. My body is built for forward motion. (It literally is. I'm walking right now) If anything is meant for me, the universe will let me know. It always does.
Plus that, I look hot/sexy/gorgeous/beautiful… I'm not gonna waste what's left of my wrinkle free face on bullshit.
I wish I might
Later
PS: I made a dress for a birthday phootoshoot with Teri only to realize I don't like the top so I'm moving in a different direction
PS2: I bought a teddy bear corset and teddy bear nails to wear for my actual birthday only to find that the corset is too freaking big. At 1st I was annoyed, but then I decided to try my hand at taking it in. To say it was my 1st time taking in anything, I think I did a pretty good job. I kept taking it off and pinching the seams until I liked the fit then I added straps cuz I shall not be having a nip slip on my special day 🥳🎂🎊
- Me (Talking to my Aunt Carroll yesterday)
OMC… I woke up to "Yet To Come! (Thought I was gonna wake up to tomorrow, but nah. I prefer this! 💜💜💜)
No, this isn't the review, but just know I can't wait to talk about it. I've been smiling since I heard it. I've gotta listen to it a few more times so that I can get a more solid view of what I heard.
Soooooooo… Stick a pin in this…
Why am I here then? Apparently, yesterday, at 1:19pms, Player 456 got outta the clink. I was in full panic/freak out/anxiety mode (I mean, shaking, sitting on the ground in front of Food Lion… It was that bad) when I arrived at my hair appointment. Tyra has done hair 3x's in the past. While she was doing my hair, she started talking to me about my mood. The longer she talked, the more I questioned myself as to why I was feeling anything about the situation at all.
Nobody has power in your life unless you hand over the keys. I'm a single woman living her best single life. I've invested entirely too much into not only this birthday, but my mental health to give someone else power over my moods. My fucking birthday is tomorrow! I'm gonna spend the day with someone who actually gives a shit about me. What the fuck do I have to be freaking out about? If it's outside of me, it's not for me. That's just the way it is now and you know what? There's nothing wrong with pushing aside other people's shit (ESPECIALLY HIS) in favor of a fun, relaxing birthday.
You know what? Casa de mentality is taking a stand, dammit! Doesn't matter if what's going on with me is PTSD, ADHD or OPP… I'm willing to go to war in order to give myself a better future.
Starting with this little project that I like to call "Shinigami's Best Birthday Ever" from there? Probably everything cuz I wanna give myself exactly what I deserve: EVERYTHING
So there's no time for tears, fears and/or drama… It's like *points* our post quote of the day says. I'm no longer invested/interested in what's behind me. My body is built for forward motion. (It literally is. I'm walking right now) If anything is meant for me, the universe will let me know. It always does.
Plus that, I look hot/sexy/gorgeous/beautiful… I'm not gonna waste what's left of my wrinkle free face on bullshit.
I wish I might
Later
PS: I made a dress for a birthday phootoshoot with Teri only to realize I don't like the top so I'm moving in a different direction
PS2: I bought a teddy bear corset and teddy bear nails to wear for my actual birthday only to find that the corset is too freaking big. At 1st I was annoyed, but then I decided to try my hand at taking it in. To say it was my 1st time taking in anything, I think I did a pretty good job. I kept taking it off and pinching the seams until I liked the fit then I added straps cuz I shall not be having a nip slip on my special day 🥳🎂🎊