slow motion...see me let go...
no one can catch a fucking break can they. i'm going to
miss seeing my loveee at school, it was something i got used to this
year and it always made my day better just to see him. this sucksss. if
he can't go to prom with me i will die because he already wasn't allowed
to be at ring banquet and prom is different it's really important to me
and i just want to go to one of the funnest nights with a boy i
actually love and will actually dance with me and have a good time and
all. i just want to be with dan that night :-( i'm not even going to
want to go anymore if he can't god i don't care if i'm making this a
bigger deal than it seems, i was really excited for that, it's a night
i always thought about since i was little and watched saved by the bell
with zack and kelly and i wanted that for my prom and ugghh.
rrrrrrrrrr. adding to the list of things me and my parents can
constantly fight about. this night has sucked so bad for him, i just
want something really good to happen for him atleast once. i know
sometimes he brings things on himself but i have to admit he has shit
luck. i love him so much after everything that happens i always stick
up for him and uhh it gets so tiring. ...and believe it or not
everything that happens to him ends up affecting me. and my night was
shit too, how about some fucking good news for once?
i hate luck i hate rules i hate everything. i hate my parents. i
hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my parents, but apperantly since all
the fights in our house are the cause of me, i guess they hate me too.
i hate them for not understanding, i hate them for pretending to be my
friend and lying, and i hate them for not fucking recognizing when
their own daughter is depressed for months. but ofcourse the better
option is to yell at her for crying and being emotional, and for not
doing anything and sleeping too much and being lazy. don't try and
help, don't worry i don't fucking need your help assholes. everytime i
think we will become closer and make amends they have to lose me again.
dan :-( uhhhhhhhhhgggg