When you've got to feel it in your bones. Now i can't climb the stairs, pieces missing everywhere...
i'm in such
a bad mood lol. sejal was in the worst mood i think i've ever seen her
in today. now she's fine and i'm crankyyy. i have pms but to top that
off dan has to waste my time. sometimes he makes me soooooooo mad.
someone tell me now why would you call someone and ask them to hang out
if you are going to go home and lay in your bed and put your head in
your pillow. i tried to get him up so much but the only time he got up
was so i could go get his stupid peach rings and disgusting yellow
swedish fish because i lost a bet and i thought after that he would
atleast stay awake but he came inside and laid down in his bed and
fucking went to sleep. it made me really mad cause i feel like i'm
always waiting on him and wasting my time and it's like all he cares
about is him and his schedule and doesn't care whose time he's wasting
as long as he gets to do what he wants. i originally wanted to go to
driving school tonight and i wish i did or i could've gone to the gym
atleast...idk anythings better than watching someone sleep and trying
to make conversation with a sleeping person. eh sorry i'm just really
mad. i guess this was like my snapping point lol usually i complain
that all he does is fucking sleep when i'm around but tonight i just
snapped and he could care less he's home sleeping. anyways lol school
sucks and everyones trying to cram in tests we aren't ready for before
vacation. this weekend was pretty good, idk i thought so. oh and that
last thing i wrote in here about being so honored to get a phone call,
i didn't even get a call hah i won't complain anymore cause i am really
not in the mood to be talking about this, i'll feel too mean later. i
hope this weekend is good. maybe i will actually get to see sejal for
once lol. i love watching people's relationships start and stuff, just
the way they act...especially at the beggining. when everything's so
new and exciting and you can just see how much happier they are. i know
a few people who are obviously much happier and just ah everythings so
cute. oh dear i am extremely cranky and negative right now, i'd like to
be in their place for a day just to get my spirits up. i see changes i
just can't see what they are but they're comming. i'm scared heh. i've
changed so much.