what i wish i could say to you..
I dont want to say things like
"guess i know who my true friends are"
or
"sometimes people fade"
i dont want you to fade...
i mean there was a time we were inseperable and im nt gonna lie
events that took place put a damper on that and i cant help it but thats that and this is now
i cant help you if you wont let me
and if your not going to let me help you then we need to just be two people seperated from all the bullshit
but instead were just becoming two people seperated.
i have a job and school
yes i know
i cant always bend anytime you need me to but what about the times i do bend and you dont take it??
i took off work and told you i was going to come see you and what did you say?
"theres no room. the dorm is different this year. i dont even like being here."
do you think i give a FUCK about a small dorm????
youre supposed to be my best friend and you think IM the one who is drifting and isnt there for you
THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT!
i told you specific times that i could spend with you this weekend and what did you do?
you went to the pallisaides and then babysat..
where in our line of friendship were those not events that we did TOGETHER????
i would have loved to go with you and your family to the mall or to jason and nicoles to help you babysit
do u think i would have said no??
i wanted to see you and spend time with you but you were too busy feeling sorry for yourself or spiting me for never having time.
all you have to do is ask me.
instead you assume im busy when in actuailty.. i made sure i wasnt this weekend just so i could see you.
but you didnt give me the time.
im going away in january and im going to be farther away from you then i am now
can we not go through this bullshit during the WHOLE holiday season?
and i know your gonna be pissed when you find out im going to visit one of my other friends who "i care about more then you"
but guess what.. those were your days and you didnt want them. So yeah i decided to give them to someone else.
i know your life is shit right now and i know you dont tell me things because i dont agree with your choices.
you can get out of the problem if you want to.
its gonna be hard and it will suck but it is possible
but dont penalize me for your choices.
and dont make me out to be the bad guy either
do you know what it was like when tara asked me why i wasnt going to addisons birthday party?? she thought i just wasnt going but no. i had to tell her i wasnt invited and she tried to play it off as it wasa all mesed up this year and no one got written invitations. thats all well and good but you didnt even invite me! you talked about it infront of me with your mom and never said a word of "oh meghan are you gonna be able to come? do you work?"
i would have taken off that day but no. you assumed i was busy
and then to explain to my family that you were missing another year of cape cod?
are you ever gonna go up again, cause at this point i cant really tell.
so guess what...
you're not the only one who feels like shit
thanks.
"guess i know who my true friends are"
or
"sometimes people fade"
i dont want you to fade...
i mean there was a time we were inseperable and im nt gonna lie
events that took place put a damper on that and i cant help it but thats that and this is now
i cant help you if you wont let me
and if your not going to let me help you then we need to just be two people seperated from all the bullshit
but instead were just becoming two people seperated.
i have a job and school
yes i know
i cant always bend anytime you need me to but what about the times i do bend and you dont take it??
i took off work and told you i was going to come see you and what did you say?
"theres no room. the dorm is different this year. i dont even like being here."
do you think i give a FUCK about a small dorm????
youre supposed to be my best friend and you think IM the one who is drifting and isnt there for you
THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT!
i told you specific times that i could spend with you this weekend and what did you do?
you went to the pallisaides and then babysat..
where in our line of friendship were those not events that we did TOGETHER????
i would have loved to go with you and your family to the mall or to jason and nicoles to help you babysit
do u think i would have said no??
i wanted to see you and spend time with you but you were too busy feeling sorry for yourself or spiting me for never having time.
all you have to do is ask me.
instead you assume im busy when in actuailty.. i made sure i wasnt this weekend just so i could see you.
but you didnt give me the time.
im going away in january and im going to be farther away from you then i am now
can we not go through this bullshit during the WHOLE holiday season?
and i know your gonna be pissed when you find out im going to visit one of my other friends who "i care about more then you"
but guess what.. those were your days and you didnt want them. So yeah i decided to give them to someone else.
i know your life is shit right now and i know you dont tell me things because i dont agree with your choices.
you can get out of the problem if you want to.
its gonna be hard and it will suck but it is possible
but dont penalize me for your choices.
and dont make me out to be the bad guy either
do you know what it was like when tara asked me why i wasnt going to addisons birthday party?? she thought i just wasnt going but no. i had to tell her i wasnt invited and she tried to play it off as it wasa all mesed up this year and no one got written invitations. thats all well and good but you didnt even invite me! you talked about it infront of me with your mom and never said a word of "oh meghan are you gonna be able to come? do you work?"
i would have taken off that day but no. you assumed i was busy
and then to explain to my family that you were missing another year of cape cod?
are you ever gonna go up again, cause at this point i cant really tell.
so guess what...
you're not the only one who feels like shit
thanks.