I am feeling very bad lately. I am a bad person. A very bad person. as i type this, i am stealing my mothers xanax. yesterday I almost bled to death. Not exaggerating either. FYI if you ever have an abortion, expect ping-pond sized blood clots to come out of you. Last night I thought i really was going to die.Sean was scared too, because he ( Read more... )

I got my nose pierced again, this time on the other side. Its the last time. Third time is a charm. Hopefully. Sean got kicked out and he has been in a horrible mood ever since because he has to live in a dirty house, and he is a big clean freak. He takes three showers a day sometimes. That might be considered OCD.

The last few weeks perhaps I have been overdoing the partying a little bit. Alot. For some reason, e is everywhere right now and Sean started selling it and I basically have just been getting fucked up lately and not a whole lot more. Jessi freaked out a few days ago and passed out on seans floor. It was scary. I dont even know what i am doing. On ( Read more... )

I have to go to the doctor tomorrow. Sean is taking me because its in arlingon and i dont know how to get there. Doctors scare me. Especially this doctor. Dawn of the Dead is an awesome movie. Its humid and im sweaty and hot and i haven't taken a shower yet today. Last week I did x for the first time in a long time and i was out of it for three ( Read more... )

i have a headache and havent slept in two days. Today my face and hands and legs all went numb, and I drove past this guys house three times. I dont know what is wrong with me. I have to go. i have a date with Sean.

my dad found out that ive stopped going to school. Now i have to pass classes that i havent been to in months. Ill try me best. No, wait, that is a lie. I dont want tp tr, so im not going to. At least I have a job. Sean and I are finally having sex, alert the media. I dont know why everyone made such a big deal that we waited so long. But now thats ( Read more... )

i got my car back today. I didnt go to school. I still havent told my parents or sean. Actually, my mom knows, but my dad doesn't.

I'm going to see Ben Kweller. Sean bought us tickets for my birthday. Its in April. I can't wait. Dont be sad though. My car broke again but not as bad this time. It made me think of last time though and i think i laughed foe about ten minutes thinking about that little (mis)adventure. Remember how I accidentally turned on my my dads windshield ( Read more... )

I want a conor picture for my thing. So rachael, how have you been? I hate my life because every day is basically the same and im tired all of the time. i got my nose pierced again and then took it out again. i want to drink poison. but dont worry. i wont. do you like college? hopefully you are meeting lots of cool people up there. have you found ( Read more... )

gee whiz, its been a long time since i have written on here. Ive been actully having a social life lately. Well, for me anyway.Not much has been happening though. I got in a car wreck, but not in my car, and I didn't get hurt, so its aight. And i went clubbin one night and we went on urban night and we (me and Jessi) were the only cute white girls ( Read more... )