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[rhaetia]

Hi :) I was a member of this group a few months ago...but then I kind of fell off because I felt like I just needed time away from the internet and computer...I was doing really well for a while with my weight and exercising and stuff, but I think I burned out because I was doing too much. I don't know. I just feel like I need to change the way I eat, what I eat, and how much I eat...because I tried on my favorite skirt today, and it didn't fit me. I need to get back to where I was before, and I just need some motivation I guess. It seems like I'm starting over every day because I can't get it right. I need to make a change for my health. For me. I don't know how much I weigh right this second. But my goal is 105. That's the magic number. I know I can do it, I am just going to have to be patient and eat right. I don't even know why I eat crappily. I just do. It frustrates me, because I know that I can do better than this. I can be better than this, and it is my responsibility to take care of myself. I am at a prime in my life I feel...like I should not be letting my weight subtract even an ounce away from my confidence...but I am, and I need it to stop. I'm going to take control from here on out. Not control like the bad kind...but the good control that is that I am responsible for my own body and its care. I need to make sure that it is healthy. I have to take care of this gift which is me...no excuses. So...I'm coming back. My summer schedule is pretty hectic with training and stuff...but I have to do this for me. No going back to old ways. The direction is forward from here on out.

I was just looking for some support I guess.

I'm going to do this. I'm going to succeed.

I don't have a plan right now...but I'm working on it...I know plans and goals are important. It will follow soon.