I'm trying really hard to not let him affect me. It just sucks that he knows all these triggers. And I really don't know if I can handle rapid trigger dismantling in the midst of everything else going on.
Darling, he's lost a good thing and made the entire scenario worse in a variety of ways. However, lacking the balls and integrity to hone up to his mistakes, he is taking it out on you. It's the bitchings of a gutless wonder ruminating over his loss and taking it out on you instead. Displacement is a bitch to deal with but just recognize it as another level of his weakness.
The fault doesn't lay with you and remember it. Just move on with your life and make the most of it.
He seems like he doesn't care if he hurts me .. and also genuinely doesn't understand why things upset me. I don't comprehend it at all.
I guess I see it less as displacement since I removed him from most of my life and simply did without for a while. So, to my mind, Jon isn't displacing him, he's simply fitting into a void ... perfectly so I might add.
I can't imagine he isn't doing this on purpose. He's trying to keep you off guard,probably so it will be easier to hurt you. This is a game to him and he's definitely keeping a tally of the times he considers his wins.
I'm so sorry. I wish you didn't have to spend another instant with him.
But, one day, fairly soon, you will be out of there and you won't ever have to go back.
You know that line you're not supposed to cross, Lynn? LOOK BEHIND YOU.
That is some seriously repugnant behavior. I am totally with dandelion_diva -- he's keeping you emotionally walking on eggshells so he can have what he feels is power over you, making you doubt yourself, and tallying up his "wins" so he can gloat later.
I'm pretty sure he plays jump rope with that line. :/
I feel like a fool at times because I feel for all his shit at the beginning of the relationship. I think that's part of why I keep documenting so in those brief moments where he's nice, I don't fall for it again.
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Don't let the poison of his words get to you.
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I am looking forward to moving on, there's no doubt there.
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The fault doesn't lay with you and remember it. Just move on with your life and make the most of it.
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I guess I see it less as displacement since I removed him from most of my life and simply did without for a while. So, to my mind, Jon isn't displacing him, he's simply fitting into a void ... perfectly so I might add.
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I'm so sorry. I wish you didn't have to spend another instant with him.
But, one day, fairly soon, you will be out of there and you won't ever have to go back.
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I'd almost be counting the days .. but we don't have a date set. LOL
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You know that line you're not supposed to cross, Lynn? LOOK BEHIND YOU.
That is some seriously repugnant behavior. I am totally with dandelion_diva -- he's keeping you emotionally walking on eggshells so he can have what he feels is power over you, making you doubt yourself, and tallying up his "wins" so he can gloat later.
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I feel like a fool at times because I feel for all his shit at the beginning of the relationship. I think that's part of why I keep documenting so in those brief moments where he's nice, I don't fall for it again.
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