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I've changed my mind. I want the drugs. Counselling's all well and good, but I was diagnosed at Easter, and I still haven't been able to see anyone yet ( Read more... )

It is, in some ways, kind of re-assuring to know that whatever might be going on with me (clinical depression, looming deadlines) I can count on my Dad to patronise me to within an inch of my life, and randomly lay into me for no apparent reason ( Read more... )

Am really starting to regret saying "no" to the drugs. They could have helped passed the time a little more painlessly until the counselling gets here.

On the plus side, I have found out what a certain Finnish swear word means.

Hey guys ( Read more... )

Okay. I think I might have come to some conclusions concerning the insomnia. In short, sleeping or the prospect of going to sleep, makes me sad. Since early November I've been having sudden sharp down turn in my mood around the time I would/should be going to bed. I'm still happy snuggling down in bed and having lie ins and stuff. I just don't want ( Read more... )

I really don't have any sense of my own limits, do I?

If I weren't feeling so apathetic I'd have to cry.

Fucking idiot. Everything at the last bloody minute.

I want to just curl up. All of it go away...

Real Life isn't going so well ( Read more... )

So, myself and laligin went to the Hub. Shiny. Had a good time. I got my photo taken with Naoko Mori, who is quite huggable ( Read more... )

Just to add also; that thing that was really upsetting me all on its own, but then all the more because I thought it was a really childish thing to be upset over?

Apparently not so much...