fallen man's praise
Tomorrow and Thurs I'm gonna be at my friend Kirsten's in Albany, it's been a long time since i've seen her and I can't wait! *and there was much rejoicing*
BTW, the Company is now heading South with the Ring, heading towards the abandoned region of Hollin. :-)
I can't write any more cuz I'm supposed to be taking my brother Stephen out on a "date".
Here's the first thing i've written in awhile...it's designed to give an idea of what i had been feeling recently.
Face #1
Grey face stares back, suffers no word
Noise comes back as silence, energy dies
You will wait forever for that life-spark
Looks like a blank slate--all looks deceive
Underneath rages all the ocean’s tumult
Confusion smothers the person inside
The little one crying, hurting, hiding from age
Grey face never cries, embraces immobility
All pain and feeling swallowed long ago
Thoughts find roads for the journey never taken
Reaction to reality breeds an emotionless void
So slow, worn out…changing would mean waking up
Why don’t you give up, enter my emptiness
Drug your soul to sleep for just a little longer
Laugh and love and work, or try to raise yourself,
And after all return to what you cannot escape
This is the living death, my grey face
12029004
and more relient k--i swear the whole album's gonne end up on here! :-) It's kinda related to how I acted this weekend--guys i'm so sorry. Especially Ang and Hava, and whoever else I've unknowingly hurt. Just believe that I'm trying to improve.
When I Go Down
I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods
I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works
when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them
If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found
I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works
Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly
You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as I exhale I hear your voice
and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love you
oh God, I love you
and life is now worth living
if only because of you
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth
When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
cause you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to life me up again
BTW, the Company is now heading South with the Ring, heading towards the abandoned region of Hollin. :-)
I can't write any more cuz I'm supposed to be taking my brother Stephen out on a "date".
Here's the first thing i've written in awhile...it's designed to give an idea of what i had been feeling recently.
Face #1
Grey face stares back, suffers no word
Noise comes back as silence, energy dies
You will wait forever for that life-spark
Looks like a blank slate--all looks deceive
Underneath rages all the ocean’s tumult
Confusion smothers the person inside
The little one crying, hurting, hiding from age
Grey face never cries, embraces immobility
All pain and feeling swallowed long ago
Thoughts find roads for the journey never taken
Reaction to reality breeds an emotionless void
So slow, worn out…changing would mean waking up
Why don’t you give up, enter my emptiness
Drug your soul to sleep for just a little longer
Laugh and love and work, or try to raise yourself,
And after all return to what you cannot escape
This is the living death, my grey face
12029004
and more relient k--i swear the whole album's gonne end up on here! :-) It's kinda related to how I acted this weekend--guys i'm so sorry. Especially Ang and Hava, and whoever else I've unknowingly hurt. Just believe that I'm trying to improve.
When I Go Down
I'll tell you flat out
it hurts so much to think of this
so from my thoughts I will exclude
this very thing that
I hate more than everything is
the way I'm powerless
to dictate my own moods
I've thrown away
so many things that could've been much more
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works
when I go down
I go down hard
and I take everything I've learned
and teach myself some disregard
when I go down
it hurts to hit the bottom
and of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them
If and when I can
clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
into a place where
peace can search me out and find
that I'm so ready to be found
I've thrown away
the hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
so many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
the secret to find an end to this
and I just pray
my problems go away if they're ignored
but that's not the way it works
no that's not the way it works
Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
reprimands me
then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
yet you love me
and that consumes me
and I'll stand up again
and do so willingly
You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
as I exhale I hear your voice
and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
and from my lips the words I choose to say
seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
because I love you
oh God, I love you
and life is now worth living
if only because of you
and when they say I'm dead and gone
it won't be further from the truth
When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
cause you'll be there
with open arms
to lift me up again
to life me up again