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[sha_sha_do]

Since school has started, casa has been so amazing and
i have been looking forward to going there all day.
now, its completly switched.
i'm finding that the communications retreat had a truly profound effect on my life
and consequently, i am feeling much more comfortable and confident at school.
i was in a big fucking rut before that retreat
(thank god i'm getting out of it now).
but of course, casa has been painfully awkward
painfully.
its the one bad thing on my mind lately.
i feel so uncomfortable there now and it sucks and i wish i could just ignore everything.
goddamnit.
why do i have to be so moody?
and more importantly: why did my feelings go crazy and fuckin TURN OFF?

in other news:
my music is so loud right now, i think its echoing.
i am so grateful for all the people i met and am getting to know currently.
they are all amazing.
amazing.
and i am so excited for this weekend, its unbeleivable.
and also, i'm excited (surprisingly) for December.
because of a million shows that i'm going to!
and also, its kind of fun to prance around in scarves and boots
and to look for love and throw snow and be cosy and smell that pine tree smell.......ohhhhh....
lifelifelifelifelifelife

i'm finally getting out of my arting block!
yes, its true.
i have finally been inspired.

I FEEL SO GOOD.

madeleine