i hate that the spark has flickered/ i still want to live in the 70's/ picture frames
I woke up feeling pretty refreshed today and in better health than i have been for the past two or three weeks.
it feels so good to not really care about much and sit around and interact
with people.
it seems pretty simple at the moment.
i've been feeling very creative lately and i'm
glad that i have had the energy to take advantage of that.
i have had a half-finished painting in my room for a long time
now and its finally closer to being all the way finished.
i've really had alot of great spells in my life.
some that have lasted a really long time,
but for some reason they all seem to flicker and eventually die
and i always seem to find myself in mediocrity once again.
that is how i feel right now. mediocre.
i don't think i will feel above mediocre until i am
living on my own in a big city.
(that is the definition of freedom for me)
i already feel very accomplished this summer.
firstly because i finally took driver's training.
i've been feeling pretty outgoing (although not so much this past week)
and a friend and i have been spending alot of time making music lately
something that is on my mind alot, (and i wodner if any of you think of this as well)
is when i'm 30 or something,
what am i going to remember when i think back to these years?
teen vogue is so inspiring!
some of their fashion spreads are truly phenominal
and their music and movie recomendations sometimes surprise me in a good way.
does anyone want to do a fashion shoot with me?
hope everyone is doing well
madeleine