you are my sweetest downfall
discovered something really interesting about myself the other day.
when i suspect that someone in my life feels a certain way,
it is actually because i feel that way.
let me explain,
whenever i worry that someone is bored or losing interest,
it is actually because i myself am bored or losing interest at that point.
i find that really interesting.
it kind of follows the whole concept of,
what you dislike in others is what you dislike in yourself the most
(which i completly agree with).
we are more closely linked to the people in our lives that we think we are.
i am chill to the max lately which is fabulous.
i can tell you all right now that it is going to be a huge struggle for
me to adjust back to school.
i have this feeling that for my last two years
my grades are going to suck.
this is because i get distracted so easily and
i am not trying to fight it anymore!
i'm happy right now with what i am doing.
when i wake up in the morning, i can't lay in bed and say
"what am i doing today?" and know the answer,
AND I LOVE THAT.
my days are turning out so interesting and different from the last
that theres really no telling where they're going or where i'll end up.
had sort of an emotional half hour long crying session
on the 4th which reminded me of three things that i had forgotten:
1. i am not as emotionally stable as i thought i was
2. my mom is amazing
3. i don't really need anyone else to make me happy. i can take care of it myself.
ended up spending the majority of that day with my cousin.
which was really comforting and nice.
i feel that i am in the right state of mind.
i can also feel change and i can feel myself begining to
reject things that have been around for a while.
(scary)
i wish i wasn't so weird about my music.
i wish i didn't get bored with a new cd after a week.
(thats not long enough)
i wish i had the money to buy a new cd every day.
that is all.
madeleine
when i suspect that someone in my life feels a certain way,
it is actually because i feel that way.
let me explain,
whenever i worry that someone is bored or losing interest,
it is actually because i myself am bored or losing interest at that point.
i find that really interesting.
it kind of follows the whole concept of,
what you dislike in others is what you dislike in yourself the most
(which i completly agree with).
we are more closely linked to the people in our lives that we think we are.
i am chill to the max lately which is fabulous.
i can tell you all right now that it is going to be a huge struggle for
me to adjust back to school.
i have this feeling that for my last two years
my grades are going to suck.
this is because i get distracted so easily and
i am not trying to fight it anymore!
i'm happy right now with what i am doing.
when i wake up in the morning, i can't lay in bed and say
"what am i doing today?" and know the answer,
AND I LOVE THAT.
my days are turning out so interesting and different from the last
that theres really no telling where they're going or where i'll end up.
had sort of an emotional half hour long crying session
on the 4th which reminded me of three things that i had forgotten:
1. i am not as emotionally stable as i thought i was
2. my mom is amazing
3. i don't really need anyone else to make me happy. i can take care of it myself.
ended up spending the majority of that day with my cousin.
which was really comforting and nice.
i feel that i am in the right state of mind.
i can also feel change and i can feel myself begining to
reject things that have been around for a while.
(scary)
i wish i wasn't so weird about my music.
i wish i didn't get bored with a new cd after a week.
(thats not long enough)
i wish i had the money to buy a new cd every day.
that is all.
madeleine