the peom which tells it all..im am officially over her...
~ Setting Myself Free of You ~
I sit here and I am driving myself crazy.
Tossing questions around in my head that I know I will never find answers for.
I know that I have to find a way to let you go.
I want to take back every piece of my heart I had once given to you.
I want to be whole again.
I am tired of being incomplete.
I don't see you,
I don't hear your voice,
But somehow you still torment me in my dreams.
I wake in a cold sweat everytime I rise.
I live,
I eat,
I sleep and I breathe.
I have slipped into the shadows.
You don't even notice that I am gone.
You caused me so much pain when you were here with me.
I needed to let go of you.
Set myself free.
You are so far gone and I am yet to set myself free of you.
You always cross my mind.
I understand that you are so happy now that I am gone.
I don't care to know any of this.
It just breaks my heart.
Pulls me back when I have worked so hard on moving forward.
I know that I no longer exist in your world.
So I hope this is the last time I ever think about you.
I hope tonight will be the last time I utter your name in my sleep.
I hope this is closure.
I wish I was as strong as you though,
In someways,
I wish I was as numb as you,
As careless as you.
But I guess that is what makes us two different people.
I sit here and I am driving myself crazy.
Tossing questions around in my head that I know I will never find answers for.
I know that I have to find a way to let you go.
I want to take back every piece of my heart I had once given to you.
I want to be whole again.
I am tired of being incomplete.
I don't see you,
I don't hear your voice,
But somehow you still torment me in my dreams.
I wake in a cold sweat everytime I rise.
I live,
I eat,
I sleep and I breathe.
I have slipped into the shadows.
You don't even notice that I am gone.
You caused me so much pain when you were here with me.
I needed to let go of you.
Set myself free.
You are so far gone and I am yet to set myself free of you.
You always cross my mind.
I understand that you are so happy now that I am gone.
I don't care to know any of this.
It just breaks my heart.
Pulls me back when I have worked so hard on moving forward.
I know that I no longer exist in your world.
So I hope this is the last time I ever think about you.
I hope tonight will be the last time I utter your name in my sleep.
I hope this is closure.
I wish I was as strong as you though,
In someways,
I wish I was as numb as you,
As careless as you.
But I guess that is what makes us two different people.