ooo shit I felt the binge coming on and boy did it come!

[sexy_bianca]

Ok so after last nights escapade of being shall we say 'found out' I came up with a plan to in the morning I put literally a tiny spoonfull of cereal in a bowl and some milk, to casually be finishing off as my mum comes back from my brothers school assembly, so i eat the tiny bite, in front of step dad, so mum later comes in before lunch and Im eating a cracker with cheese and begin tidying it away so when she offers me some food I say no thanks I already ate when I ate nothing really! but then I kind of found myself in the kitchen trying to prove to the family that i eat becuase of the last few days so i start picking, then before I know it I ate a piece of toast and penut butter, a cheese sandwhich, packet of crisps a piece of pitta bread, and loads of busicuits Im so annoyed with myself Its my families fault if I wasnt proving any shit to them then I wouldnt have to eat at all! grrr why did i give in.. fingers crossed no more binging tonight I want to skip dinner after all that but obviously mum will think I havent eaten all day!! you see now no one bloody believes me when I do eat which is even WORSE!!
tomorrows a new day think I shall head to the gym for some mega calorie burning!!