Hey<3
grrr well christmas day is officially over and its the one day of the year which really is all about food, did i eat alot? hell yeah I ate soo much, I didnt even enjoy it that much and I felt so full and disgusting but for some reason I just couldnt stop eating and how scary is this, I weighed myself in the morning before ANY food then at the end after eating loads of food and I had put on 5 pounds! hahahahah i couldnt believe it I nearly died but i spose none of my food had been digested yet!
ive decided im going to buy myself some scales for inspiration to lose weight!
And I was mega depressed the other day i went to the gym and ok first I burnt 900 calories!! it was super hard my highest yet it took 2 hours of excessive excercise I really wanted to make 1000 cals but my mum came in to pick me up from the gym so didnt have time! but then and getting to the point, I have been restricting and starving and binging occassionally for ages now and everyone has become concerned blah blah blah and yes I have lost weight but im hardly a stick (which I will be if I had my own way but people force me to eat now and again and other times I binge!grr) anyway I weighed myself at the gym and it turns out I had put on weight how odd! Im 5'10 but it was wierd or maybe I just havent lost any weight but look like I have Im confused, my mum says muscle weighs more than fat but I dont want any muscles lol
sorry for rambling its late but I needed to update
leave me some love
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