Life full of Obstacles
Well the month of July has bascially been the worst month ever for me. It started off pretty well for me. But then things started to fall apart very slowly. I really can't go into details on what happend, but through it all I've lost 3 friends that I thought were my friends. Sad to say I thought they were really cool people. The biggest disappointment to me was Rick. I really thought he was changing. I actually saw some improvements, but it all faded and he started being his old self. Our friendship bascially ended after a physical fight (which I started) and me just losing faith and trust in him. As far as the other 2, what can I say.
Another event occured that hit me the worst actually took place at the club. What happend is for me to know. But after that night, I lost trust in people, especially my friends. Its been about 3 weeks since the inncident and I'm finally able to put some trust on a few of my friends. But still it's going to take time for me to heal from that.
The last week of the month actually showed great improvements. I had some time off from work to really think about things. I was able to go the beach with a few friends and have a small party later that night. And the whole week I basically hung out with David everyday and went shopping.
As far as my love life. Well its at a hault right now. A couple guys has showed interest in me, but I'm not sure where that is going. Mainly because I had interest in the 2 before and it never went anywhere. There is this one guy that I have just started talking to but I think he's only playing mind games, or just out for sex. Go figure. But I really can't just him just yet. He seems like a cool guy. But you never know.
August is coming right up. This will be a month of thinking and picking myself up. The biggest question the has to be answered is if I should move back home and try starting over, trying to rekindled my relationship with my family. Or stay here in Michigan and move on with my life.
There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
-carl jung