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So i been wondering am I a good person? ive done alot stupid things in my life, ive made alot mistakes, i use to think i was a good person, but what is a good person? like now, this past summer i started smoking cigs ,i got a second MIP. these are things i use to look down upon. I never liked ppl who smoked, i had nothing agaist them but still i never thought i would be doing it i mean i dont do it anymore but still, im lucky i didnt get addicted I mean what does that say about me. One thing i thought that made me a good person was that i care for others, but yet i dunno that doesnt mean anything does it, Ive always tried to care for ppl, even the people ive been hurt by i care about, i mean i dunno i just feel like everything thats happend and the way i feel its like a punishment or something, maybe i need to start going back to church, maybe i need to have more faith in God, i just dont know anymore, ive been hurting for so long that im unsure whats even caused it, ive been in the dark for so long, im forgetting what light looks like. I pray to God everynight asking for strength to make tomorrow a better day then the last and i guess if i look at the whole spectrum of things its definately getting better i dont hurt like i use too, i mean i still feel down alot but i get over it, but i really do wonder, and i wouldnt mind if ppl actually told me, do they think im a good guy? or what is something i could change, i need to work on bettering myself so please give me ideas, tell me what you hate about me, tell me what you like, really i want to know, its not like i care i prefer truth over anything, i need to revamp, i need a change, the old Gabe needs to go away, well at least the depressed old Gabe anyways...