So, Where to From Here?
Sigh.
What a long day. What a long weekend. Today was especially trying as I spent it with my family, first at the Clay Place (where my brother proved to be a complete jack ass) and then making personal pizzas at home and playing poker.
More stressful than it sounds, I promise.
Somehow I don't feel like getting into details, but to put it shortly: I have been given a two week deadline to figure out what I want to do with my life.
How do you even begin to do that?
My head feels heavy.
I don't want to talk about because I want to pretend that I don't have all of this to deal with right now. I don't have time to deal with this right now.
There are so many other things I want to be focusing in. How come I can't just find somewhere I enjoy and stick there.
Why am I never satisfied?
I know it's because I refuse to settle for anything, but ugh. I want to slap myself for wanting more.
This is boring and stupid and I feel nauseous and overwhelmed. I need time and clarity.
I need help.
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I had an anxiety attack while listening to Death Cab For Cutie. How sickeningly emo.
What a long day. What a long weekend. Today was especially trying as I spent it with my family, first at the Clay Place (where my brother proved to be a complete jack ass) and then making personal pizzas at home and playing poker.
More stressful than it sounds, I promise.
Somehow I don't feel like getting into details, but to put it shortly: I have been given a two week deadline to figure out what I want to do with my life.
How do you even begin to do that?
My head feels heavy.
I don't want to talk about because I want to pretend that I don't have all of this to deal with right now. I don't have time to deal with this right now.
There are so many other things I want to be focusing in. How come I can't just find somewhere I enjoy and stick there.
Why am I never satisfied?
I know it's because I refuse to settle for anything, but ugh. I want to slap myself for wanting more.
This is boring and stupid and I feel nauseous and overwhelmed. I need time and clarity.
I need help.
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I had an anxiety attack while listening to Death Cab For Cutie. How sickeningly emo.