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I called off last night and it was lovely. Shanny and I went to try and sell some stuff at Buffalo Exchange, dropped off stuff at Goodwill, and had lunch at Life Alive. We got to talk about a lot of different things that I can’t specifically remember at the moment but getting to talk and check in was really nice. We also got a personal investment something or another set up for me. She’s a cutie. She’s also been using more words of affirmation lately which is really cute and sweet. <3
Jas never text me back which I was having some difficulty kind of making sense of? I guess I’m use to processing things and talking through things so to just have them shut me out isn’t leaving me with a lot of information to work with. It’s ok if they just don’t want to deal with the level of complication or whatever it is-I just don’t know what it is so I feel myself trying to figure it out. It’s not particularly emotionally distressing, it was just like I couldn’t stop working on it in my mind and I was getting tired. So yeah, it doesn’t make clear sense to me what happened and I started to second guess how I handled things, but I was trying to be kind and fair and considerate, and not take responsibility for things that are not my responsibility, etc etc. I’m open to maybe talking through it more if they reach out. I don’t want to push for a conversation if they don’t want to have it.