A Great Turning Point
I just had the greatest turning point after talking to mom about my struggles in college last night. Sure, mom gave me the choice. She had me to decide whether to shift or not, and I really wanted to. But to come to think of it, I had nowhere else to go if I shifted.
Just go back to Japan if you're just gonna shift and take some other courses.
That's what mom said when I told her that there are certain things I couldn't take in my course. She had a point. I wasn't sure where I would end up if I shifted to courses I wanted. If only the courses I wanted had future, I probably wouldn't have taken IT. Will I get a nice job when I graduate if I wanted to work here? If I'm just gonna end up with a good-for-nothing life, I'd rather go back to Japan and work there for my own living.
It made me cry when mom said she wasn't concerned about anything else, not even for herself, but all for me and my sister. She said she was ready to die anytime, but not now. She always prays to God that He would keep her healthy and strong ALL FOR ME AND MY SISTER. She said that she lived only for us, and not for her. We're the reason why she lives now. And she would want to go anytime when I and my sister are stable to live on our own.
Everything she tells me and my sister, everything she does for us, the reason why she left and went to Japan last year to work, was ALL FOR US. And I felt guilty arguing with my mom about what she tells me sometimes and I tend to act selfish. She only tells me what to do for MY OWN GOOD, including the fact that she wants me to take IT. She's just concerned of my own future, and not hers.
I'm sure to have a GREAT job when I graduate with a degree of BSIT. Indeed, mothers know best.
As a conclusion, I'm going to pursue my course now and graduate with a degree in 3 years time.
After all, it doesn't look so bad to work in IBM :> I can go to Microsoft when I get older. HAHAHA =))
Just go back to Japan if you're just gonna shift and take some other courses.
That's what mom said when I told her that there are certain things I couldn't take in my course. She had a point. I wasn't sure where I would end up if I shifted to courses I wanted. If only the courses I wanted had future, I probably wouldn't have taken IT. Will I get a nice job when I graduate if I wanted to work here? If I'm just gonna end up with a good-for-nothing life, I'd rather go back to Japan and work there for my own living.
It made me cry when mom said she wasn't concerned about anything else, not even for herself, but all for me and my sister. She said she was ready to die anytime, but not now. She always prays to God that He would keep her healthy and strong ALL FOR ME AND MY SISTER. She said that she lived only for us, and not for her. We're the reason why she lives now. And she would want to go anytime when I and my sister are stable to live on our own.
Everything she tells me and my sister, everything she does for us, the reason why she left and went to Japan last year to work, was ALL FOR US. And I felt guilty arguing with my mom about what she tells me sometimes and I tend to act selfish. She only tells me what to do for MY OWN GOOD, including the fact that she wants me to take IT. She's just concerned of my own future, and not hers.
I'm sure to have a GREAT job when I graduate with a degree of BSIT. Indeed, mothers know best.
As a conclusion, I'm going to pursue my course now and graduate with a degree in 3 years time.
After all, it doesn't look so bad to work in IBM :> I can go to Microsoft when I get older. HAHAHA =))