More purging of my drafts folder
From when Red visited for two seconds:
The physical contact between Lily & Red made me feel uncomfortable. It definitely taps into prior insecurities that I've had about Red. But also more than that I honestly feel like the energy that she gives to those she's involved with sexually is very much the same that she puts out towards Lily. I know what I haven't seen her with very many ppl who she hasn't been intimate with but for example she hasn't ever cuddled Bailey like that. Maybe thats different because she considers Bailey a sister.
Is that something that you think about at all?
I feel like there has to be a more comfortable medium for you guys between all on and nothing.
It was a month ago so things have obviously shifted but she was saying something about how we were being massively touchier than you & her and that's how she justified being so affectionate with you. But, the difference is that we're in a romantic monogamous relationship and she is your friend. And I know that boundaries aren't super distinct between types of love, and I'm imposing structure on emotions and blah blah blah but still.
Just the way the way that she phrased it, and i don't think it was super intentional or well thought out but I did think that it was telling. And I felt like I was thwarting something and I felt self righteous and indignant.
The physical contact between Lily & Red made me feel uncomfortable. It definitely taps into prior insecurities that I've had about Red. But also more than that I honestly feel like the energy that she gives to those she's involved with sexually is very much the same that she puts out towards Lily. I know what I haven't seen her with very many ppl who she hasn't been intimate with but for example she hasn't ever cuddled Bailey like that. Maybe thats different because she considers Bailey a sister.
Is that something that you think about at all?
I feel like there has to be a more comfortable medium for you guys between all on and nothing.
It was a month ago so things have obviously shifted but she was saying something about how we were being massively touchier than you & her and that's how she justified being so affectionate with you. But, the difference is that we're in a romantic monogamous relationship and she is your friend. And I know that boundaries aren't super distinct between types of love, and I'm imposing structure on emotions and blah blah blah but still.
Just the way the way that she phrased it, and i don't think it was super intentional or well thought out but I did think that it was telling. And I felt like I was thwarting something and I felt self righteous and indignant.