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[septembur]

i feel so out of it and gross feeling. Like theres this little knot sitting in the middle of my chest, right over my sternum and its not letting me check in - I felt it all throughout yoga this morning and felt so tender, and I don't know how to be normal with Lily. I just feel sad, and small. And just now Lily yelled at me and I don't know how to come back from it quite yet.

I hope lunch is okay.

Deep breathes?