Life
There are so many ways that things could work out. Not much seems to be in my hands. The puzzle pictures could make so many different pictures. It's so hard to see how things are going to work out. I want things to be a certain way but I'm sure that what ever happens in life is for a reason and it is how God plans it to be. Sat. was FBA which was awesome because the Guard kicked butt. To be honest there was something about it that just put me down a lil bit. IDK why but for some reason it just wasn't as fun as I thought it would be. I mean before and during are performance was good I guess just afterwards wasn't as exciting I think I'm letting something get me down and I shouldn't but its hard. I mean life has been easyer laitly but there is still pain and well I'm still seeking some really good close friendships at Boone. I have lots of friends and lots of aquantinces but I don't seem to have many if any real true friends that are always there for me and that can understand/relate what I'm going through at times. I mean people are awesome and all I'm just not getting something that I desire out of life and to be honest I don't know what it is. I'm searching for what it is but I think it is something that will have to come to me when the time is right. It dosen't seem to be something I can get or seek out on my own. this post may seem very confusing. which is why I can't blame you for not understanding much of this because I don't understand much of it either. I just hope somethings get better. :-)
~Brian
~Brian