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As of right now, right this second, I'm single.
It's just me against the world.
No, I haven't called him, but it's been a week since he called and if he cares for me so little, his regard for me is so inexistent that he won't even call... then I sure as hell don't want him anymore.
What hurts, what I thought about hurting a bit back was that my life is not going to be the way I thought it would be. God, I really should have been over that last year, with the whole college thing and everything, but I guess one always has hopes, and one things there is one thing that will never change. Guess one is always wrong.
I remember reading sometime, somewhere, "one must look at something that has not changed, to see how much one has" and maybe that's right, and I have changed even if it feels like I've stayed the same. I'm being weird, don't mind me.
Star Trek fic is keeping me conscious and laughing and loving my life by bits and pieces and that's good, that's always good.
I just really miss Lima and my apartment and my home and my life, the way it used to be, even if it will never be quite the same.
I'm single. It's just a matter of getting used to it.
It's just me against the world.
No, I haven't called him, but it's been a week since he called and if he cares for me so little, his regard for me is so inexistent that he won't even call... then I sure as hell don't want him anymore.
What hurts, what I thought about hurting a bit back was that my life is not going to be the way I thought it would be. God, I really should have been over that last year, with the whole college thing and everything, but I guess one always has hopes, and one things there is one thing that will never change. Guess one is always wrong.
I remember reading sometime, somewhere, "one must look at something that has not changed, to see how much one has" and maybe that's right, and I have changed even if it feels like I've stayed the same. I'm being weird, don't mind me.
Star Trek fic is keeping me conscious and laughing and loving my life by bits and pieces and that's good, that's always good.
I just really miss Lima and my apartment and my home and my life, the way it used to be, even if it will never be quite the same.
I'm single. It's just a matter of getting used to it.