random thoughts
I've become acutely aware of the vibrations in my ear drums experience. The subway, the jacked-out car audio systems blasting into my room, the car horns -- mainly surrounding transportation issues, I see -- all make me suddenly conscious of it. I wonder if my hearing will be going bad because of this temporary adventure in New York. Temporary being multiple years.
I somehow escaped my usual depression in the winter. Instead I'm experiencing it in the summer. I must remind myself that when I work too much, I often get like this. Still it concerns me.
I'm frustrated with the lack of progress for any fall show. I think I may have to produce my own show with money I don't have. I guess no one wants to see themselves in dance. The new dance, Cliche, tackles expectations on being "cool" or "good" both in the dance world and in hipster subculture (many are both in NYC dance). I want to get to the point in the dance where I can start expressing "being comfortable in your own skin" as the central idea, but there is so much information to show before I get that part that it is impossible to show in 15 minutes. It really needs to be a full-length work, and I don't have the "credentials' to do such shit yet.
I've always been impatient, and I'm especially impatient when I have a vision. I want my life to be where I see it in 5 years. I don't care about the process of getting there if I know that's what's going to happen.
I'm coming to Chicago August 11-18, and I hope that a change in environment and seeing long-term friends will help me. I have some friends in New York who are absolutely fabulous, but it's not the same most of the time...
I also want to go back to Iowa City sometime in the Fall (maybe early October). I've somehow kept horrible touch with these people to the point where I don't know if I'll have a place to stay when I'm there... anyone to hang out with, etc. I miss Iowa City friends the most -- it breaks my heart that I'm not a part of them anymore.
I'm going to be doing a dance festival for three weeks July 9-27th. My internship also gave me a (basically free) vacation to Concord, MA for the first week of August. I'll do work for them like 2-3 hours a day. Doing all this will be great, but I've had to work to save up money for all of it, which I still don't know will be enough...
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well. I will have plenty of time to talk the next 7 weeks in the nighttime (free minutes), so please call me. I lost my phone again, and I will be without the ability to see text messages until August. I'd love to catch up with anyone.
I somehow escaped my usual depression in the winter. Instead I'm experiencing it in the summer. I must remind myself that when I work too much, I often get like this. Still it concerns me.
I'm frustrated with the lack of progress for any fall show. I think I may have to produce my own show with money I don't have. I guess no one wants to see themselves in dance. The new dance, Cliche, tackles expectations on being "cool" or "good" both in the dance world and in hipster subculture (many are both in NYC dance). I want to get to the point in the dance where I can start expressing "being comfortable in your own skin" as the central idea, but there is so much information to show before I get that part that it is impossible to show in 15 minutes. It really needs to be a full-length work, and I don't have the "credentials' to do such shit yet.
I've always been impatient, and I'm especially impatient when I have a vision. I want my life to be where I see it in 5 years. I don't care about the process of getting there if I know that's what's going to happen.
I'm coming to Chicago August 11-18, and I hope that a change in environment and seeing long-term friends will help me. I have some friends in New York who are absolutely fabulous, but it's not the same most of the time...
I also want to go back to Iowa City sometime in the Fall (maybe early October). I've somehow kept horrible touch with these people to the point where I don't know if I'll have a place to stay when I'm there... anyone to hang out with, etc. I miss Iowa City friends the most -- it breaks my heart that I'm not a part of them anymore.
I'm going to be doing a dance festival for three weeks July 9-27th. My internship also gave me a (basically free) vacation to Concord, MA for the first week of August. I'll do work for them like 2-3 hours a day. Doing all this will be great, but I've had to work to save up money for all of it, which I still don't know will be enough...
Well, I hope everyone else is doing well. I will have plenty of time to talk the next 7 weeks in the nighttime (free minutes), so please call me. I lost my phone again, and I will be without the ability to see text messages until August. I'd love to catch up with anyone.