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you know i have been sitting here trying to write... it just doesn't come to me anymore maybe i have nothing to say... or maybe i just can't find the words... maybe i just don't care anylonger... i've been quiet and anti social lately... i revert to the way of the hermit sometimes... I guess these are the times which my depression plagues me the most... I fight with it so often it has become like a familiar lovers embrace... even the pain hold comfort... these thoughts are hard for me and i try to turn away from them... but its like a hidden truth... well maybe its not that hidden i've talked about it before and posted it for the world to see... I'm just so tired... I've fought for so long... i need something to help me move forward... a sign... some help... my heart just hurts... and i feel like i can't breath... i know this like a broken record but your more than welcome not to read this... anyways