personal suicide
steve wants to move in with me again... this would be a personal suicide... i die a little inside everytime he asks... everytime i've said no... i love the son of a bitch more than i can ever say and i don't know that i can say no much longer... it would mean i loose most everything... when i told mom i felt so bad so like shit... i just don't know what to do... it would be the worst thing possible for me but damn... would you leave your brother to be homeless without a place to go? could you? do you realize the harshness of it all? i'm not going into anymore detail because anyone who knows me has at least heard a little of the rant... i hate life on days like today