Destroy who you are. Death is only change.
Don't really know what to say, but I haven't made an entry in a while. Lately, I've felt a lot like I don't belong on this world. That I should leave it. Although, I'm still here. Constantly fighting. Like I always do. I fear that someday I'm going to be to weak to go on, but I won't stop. I can't. I'll go down fighting. Then, I will lose myself forever. I have got to succeed in this battle.
I'm kind of quitting drugs. Don't ask why. Some of you know. Anyway, I haven't done any drugs in a little while. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't think it'd be this hard. I've been so tempted. I sold the last of my heroin last night, but I can get it whenever I can afford it. So, that's not a big help, but at least I'm a little farther. I've passed up free cocaine three times in the past week. So, I think I'm going to be able to do this, but my body says it wants some. It'll have to get over it.
I feel like I'm someone else. Well, I think it's more accurate to say that I was someone else for a long time, and now I feel like myself. It just feels a little unlike I'm used to.
I'm kind of quitting drugs. Don't ask why. Some of you know. Anyway, I haven't done any drugs in a little while. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't think it'd be this hard. I've been so tempted. I sold the last of my heroin last night, but I can get it whenever I can afford it. So, that's not a big help, but at least I'm a little farther. I've passed up free cocaine three times in the past week. So, I think I'm going to be able to do this, but my body says it wants some. It'll have to get over it.
I feel like I'm someone else. Well, I think it's more accurate to say that I was someone else for a long time, and now I feel like myself. It just feels a little unlike I'm used to.