ooooh i think i see sunshine :o
summer is finally here... okay i'm lying but SUNSHINE is finally here and with it my inability to be in a bad mood and... kinda funny inappropriate situations ¬_¬ what am i talking about? well, yesterday i went out in a backless shirt, denim miniskirt, leggings and boots. i thought that would have been cool enough that i wouldn't melt outside. i was... very, very wrong. i went out for one hour, came back and literally stripped within five seconds of coming through the door '_' for a while i walked around but nekkid and then decided there was no way i was ever going back outside in that many layers of clothes again... oh yes, apparently THAT little piece of something was too much clothing for the weather yesterday.
so i went out in red vest, green shorts, red tights [which were a ton thinner than the leggings] and my cousins boots ... cause they matched my shorts and i hate not matching lol. i got more than enough looks during the day,but i didn't care at least i wasn't stinky and MELTING. i know the colours were a little loud but one does not realise HOW loud until they have to go through catford, ten o'clock at night, dressed like that. see, i wasn't GOING to go through catford, i was going to go to sydenham to stay at... +cough+ but yes my aunt wanted me back in the house because she'd heard i'd been drinking... was drunk, and she didn't have a clue that i was wearing that little piece of something but... anyway the worst part about all that was? Mel, being the awesome cousin that she is, came to pick me up from catford.
...she brought my brother with her. not the one i used to live with but the one i met two weeks ago and hadn't seen since. and the last time i met him, i dunno, i happened to be wearing CLOTHES. X'D
but, hey, he can't hold it against me. he's left college again and sure he says he has a reason. i'll believe him so long as he accepts that i was melting and dying of heat when i left the house dressed like a hooker ¬_¬ and... doesn't take to dressing like me.
i've improved in mentality. i'm eating healthy again, not withdrawn, back into getting job interviews and all sorts.i'm not getting drunk as often but i'd be lying if i said i was sober as often as i'd like. see what's happened is, my mood went up and my best friends? has gone down and she's handling it the way i did, so i try to be there for her but... i get drunk more easily. i suppose the upside is if i'm legless before she is, she can't get aaaaaaaas bad as me because ... one of us has to get us soberer before we get home [yes, soberer] and also make sure we don't actually... you know... roll back to our homes ¬_¬
anyway, you're probably wondering why i haven't tried talking to her and all that right? well, i know better, she's like me. she won't listen until she's done something really bad and then she'll ask what to do and we'll fix it from there... that's just us and it gives us interesting stories to tell our grandkids when they're teenagers. i mean, do you know how hard it is to keep a teenager interested in their grandparents? there you go.
i'm hacking up a lung these days though, i dunno why. but anyway, i've had a stroke of genius... it's called getting to know a guy before you jump into bed with them ._. and it's not that i'm going to start dating and all that because i'm still seriously liking this one guy i moaned about in a previous entry [i know, there's been so many of them right?] but i know that i plan to ask him for a do over. even if i don't become his girlfriend, i'll at least have gained a very good friend. i mean, he's best friends with my best friend so i know we'll eventually get along. what screwed us over this time around is... vodka and jumping him when i said i wouldn't ._. oh my bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad baaaaaaad wild days.