I'm seriously debating...

[sbick]

The pros and cons of suicide. I'll feel like such a loser if I fail, again, and that's pretty much what's stopping me. That and then I'll still have all this crazy pressure, and seeing as I feel like a useless bitch right now. I contemplated just 'useless', but really, why bother toning it down?

Useless bitch is polite compared to the things I'm actually thinking about myself. I so really, really don't want to go into work today, either...