I just really want to die right now...

[sbick]

I can't deal with any of this crap, because I have way too much pressure on me right now. Between what my parents expect, and what I expect of myself - and the pressure I put on myself is much, much worse - I just want it all to go away, and there's only one way I see that happening.

Called my psychiatrist, and I'm going to call him back later today as we set a time for me to call back, but I can't get up the energy to do anything today...