I feel frustrated, stuck. I miss moving forward. I want to keep recovering, make progress.

I'm just tired of failing.

The irony here is palpable.

Sick of reviewing goals and seeing where they derailed, try again, start from not quite the beginning-two steps forward, then jitterbug my way back, only to fall down from exhaustion and stare ( Read more... )

I'm pretty good, I guess. Shit's still hard, and I'm still crazy.

Turned 35 last month. With the money everybody gave me I bought a wetsuit. It arrived on Tuesday and I went for a tiny swim in ridiculous surf because I could. It was glorious.

Celebrating Chanukah with the girlfriend's family tomorrow. It's nice to have family. Confusing to ( Read more... )

Since we all live so much of our lives on our phones, now, it seems weird not to be able to start this conversation by dragging in a picture or a meme to start trying to explain what I don't quite know how to put into words ( Read more... )

Habits I want to begin on ( Read more... )

I would Like To Achieve In Upcoming Year:

• Continue being awesome and making good choices.
• Discover, appreciate and sustain self in rejuvenating manner.
• Enjoy and maintain boundaries.
• Break down goals into smaller, manageable tasks and complete actions to progress in a timely fashion.

I would like to Do the following:

• Quit smoking -- ( Read more... )

My iced tea should be like my mood: dark and brew-dy.

(Okay, I don't like my mood that way, but the sentence was too amusing to me to pass up.)

I'm watching my inspirational movies. I have no fucking clue why. Finding Forrester, Good Will Hunting, Sister Act 2: Back in the Habit (no laughing), BraveAll except for that last one, I've probably ( Read more... )

So, when people talk about arming teachers, I always remember Bucky ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, there was a little girl.

There were many things wrong with this little girl, but she couldn't see what they were. She checked herself from head-to-toe, but on the outside she looked just like any other little girl. She sat in church and asked God what was wrong with her, or she sat in a tree and tried to just feel what could be ( Read more... )

( Chiller asked me five questions. )

New Year's Resolutions:

(resolutions from last year, 2007, 2006, 2005, none for 2004, 2003 & 2002)

I did pretty good on all of those, except the write more, damnit resolution. It wasn't specific as to journal or creative writing, but I'm going to go with "both" and "didn't do enough."

This year's resolutions:

· Continue to be happy.

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