My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so I die happy...
Well... I'm happy. He said he would call and he did. He called at like 9:15 when I had just got off work. He called earlier than he said he would which means that he was thinking about it. Anyway then he asked if I wanted to go see a movie. I like that... I like a guy who can like choose something. We didn't have to play the, "What should we do... there's nothing to do... what should we do... what do you wanna do... no what do YOU wanna do..." game. Anyway... called the nerd herd. Don't know where I came up with that name... it just popped into my head! They were insane as usual. Then he came and picked me up. Yay. We went and saw The Longest Yard. Actually a lot better than how I thought it would be. After the movie he drove me home and walked me to my door! *gasp* And then.. we kissed. Yay I think. Except I broke the rules. No kissing on the first date! But maybe prom can be our first date... I mean it kind of was. Maybe I won't kiss him on the second date. But now he will expect it. Although I'm honest with him... maybe I'll tell him why I can't. lol. I'm just so fucking happy right now it's insane! But I know that everything will be different tomorrow.
The other thing that I'm worried about is ... I don't know if I can talk about like... stuff with him. Like the serious parts of my life. Everytime I've said it before he shuts himself off from me. He needs to be able to handle it. Because I can't do it on my own and I need for him to be able to help me. Maybe I'm thinking too much ahead. I don't know... I need to go to bed before I get too much into my thinking mood and end up angry.
Happy for now.
Oops... I just realized I told TGIF I would see the Longest Yard with him... and I ignored 4 of his calls today. Not intentionally... twice I was napping and twice I was at work. But still. I feel bad. Because he really is nice... he's just not the dating type. Plus I am sort of like dating someone else... On the brightside I can now tell sketchy dave that I'm dating someone... and that's good. Because then he will leave me alone. And if he doesn't I'm pretty sure that I now have someone who could beat him up. Especailly when he gets all macho...
*sigh*
I have to say that yesterday was awesome fun. Or should I say last night. It was crazy. Walmart hahahaha. I was fucking nuts I think. That bike and batman mask totally changed everything. But it fucking hurt when Jordan threw that ball at my face. And then we had a fun sleepover! With Jordan lol. He can be just what someone needs to cheer them up. Anyway then I was exhausted today but it was totally worth it!
The other thing that I'm worried about is ... I don't know if I can talk about like... stuff with him. Like the serious parts of my life. Everytime I've said it before he shuts himself off from me. He needs to be able to handle it. Because I can't do it on my own and I need for him to be able to help me. Maybe I'm thinking too much ahead. I don't know... I need to go to bed before I get too much into my thinking mood and end up angry.
Happy for now.
Oops... I just realized I told TGIF I would see the Longest Yard with him... and I ignored 4 of his calls today. Not intentionally... twice I was napping and twice I was at work. But still. I feel bad. Because he really is nice... he's just not the dating type. Plus I am sort of like dating someone else... On the brightside I can now tell sketchy dave that I'm dating someone... and that's good. Because then he will leave me alone. And if he doesn't I'm pretty sure that I now have someone who could beat him up. Especailly when he gets all macho...
*sigh*
I have to say that yesterday was awesome fun. Or should I say last night. It was crazy. Walmart hahahaha. I was fucking nuts I think. That bike and batman mask totally changed everything. But it fucking hurt when Jordan threw that ball at my face. And then we had a fun sleepover! With Jordan lol. He can be just what someone needs to cheer them up. Anyway then I was exhausted today but it was totally worth it!